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2004-05-12T08:25:00.000+08:00

Storybooks are Fantasy not Reality

Wow. Blogger changed their layout. Im not sure how long ago they changed it, but now then I realised it, as I haven't been blogging. Oops.
Well, now Im feeling really lethargic and sleepy. Slept at 1+am last night as I was watching one of my favourite classic english movie - Ben Hur. I still can't believe that show has won 11 academy awards. How cool is that? But it's really a great show to watch, as it teaches you alot of valuable lessons.
I just finish another Nicholas Sparks book. It's a continuation of The Notebook, called The Wedding. Gosh, the book is so so nice. The ending is really a suprise for me. Seriously, I think reading all these romance books, especially Nicholas Sparks books, are doing harm to me. Yes, it's really harmful. You people must be curious why I said that right? Well, its simply because, the more I read romance book the more I feel like Im living in their world. Know what I mean? It's as if I am the main character in that book. And the men I imagine would be so romantic, and their love will last forever, always happy ending. But I must keep reminding myself that it's all fantasy, not reality. But somehow, I still find myself living in the in-between worlds or fantasy and reality. Have you all ever felt like that before? Or am I the only one? Maybe I read too much romance books. And because of this, I'm scared of guys. I dare not open myself. Whenever a guy tells me he likes me, I run. Maybe the guy who can teach me how to open up will be the love of my life. LOL.
Okay, seriously, currently that this guy beside me, and let me tell you. He's simply purely disgusting to the max. After lunch, he drink water from his water bottle. But instead of swallowing the water, he swirl it his mouth, making the gargling sound, then swallowing it. Gosh man. I really wondeer, how more disgusting can he be. Seeing him do that to the water really makes me feel....nevermind. Shall not say anymore, or I'll have that nauseate feeling again.
Btw, I'm having trouble with my computer now. I cant seem to be able to excess to any search engines. And its really interfering with my work. I can't go and search anything on the web for my class today. And Winnie had to do everything, as my other group members also hardly contribute. I really feel very redundant. I hate the feeling. As if I'm a slacker, and I'm so so uncomfortable with it. Sorry Winnie, you had to do all. Really sorry. I better go now and see if I can help in any way now.

2004-05-04T13:38:00.000+08:00

Hi people! Well, today's the second day of school, and sigh, Im sooo sooo sleepy. Not enough sleep at all. Last night slept real late as I was rushing the stupid 800 word essay for that stupid sprite game. And because of that, it deprive me of my sleep. Shucks man. And till now, I still haven't finish it yet. Last night I was also chatting with Peera. Oh boy, he always saying Im a housewife or a housewife to be. Just because I like to cook, and I do help out in housework, but that does not mean I like doing them! Gosh! He has become so crappy.
Well, and did I mention that I didn't sleep well last night? Because I think I slept in a certain weird position for way too long, and that's why, now one side of my neck and shoulder is aching so badly till I have trouble turning my neck. When I return home, my mom is going to massage or rub it for me. Gosh, and it's gonna be real pain.
I gotta go now..shall blog more later..

2004-04-30T23:15:00.000+08:00

Heloo people. Im back to blog again. Well, I really wished I had my tagboard in here, but I dunno how to put it in, as it doesn't seem to have enough space for it. My sister said, a blog without a tagboard is like chocolate ice-cream without chocholate. Hmm..I think it's really true, don't ya tink so?

Well, today's really not my day. Really felt down. My dad really really refused to let me go. I just don't know why after hearing it, my tears just kept flowing. And it was like non-stop. A little at a time, slowly running. I felt rather silly. When my parents refuse to let me go to my class chalet, I didn't even cry. But I don't know why, I just cried when I can't go KL this time. Maybe because tennis really meant alot to me. I never would have thought or imagine that I would fall-in-love with tennis so much. But I really have. This is probably the first time Im ever serious about something. When I was young, I took up an art class, but gave it up half-way as I lost interest. The same goes for the abacus class. And a few years back I dropped piano too. The reason, cause I lost interest and felt meaningless to continue. But tennis is a whole different story, I really love it. I would still wanna continue learning tennis even if my school decides to close it. I am even willing to work to pay for it myself. And going to KL to competite with other players from other country is really a great opportunity that I wouldn't wanna miss. But Im not allowed to go. Reason, v simple: Because my family would worry, and my dad thinks at night, my frends would wanna go pub, and I would be influence and go with them, and mayb end up drinking some spiked drink. -_-''' Really felt like arguing back, my friends are not those who visits the pub, and after playing for the whole day, we would not even have energy to go anywhere more or less a pub!! But I didn't argue back. Just felt tired of him. Same goes for the poly forum thing. ARGH!! I really wonder, if its piano competition, I think they would probably let me go.

Something bad happened that caused Tina and her boyfriend so angry and upset. Really hate those bunch of sickening morons. What are they trying to do? Calling horrible names at them and threating them. I could go to the police and report them for that. On monday, I'll be Tina's bodyguard. Though Im petite and small in size, but let me tell you, my strength isn't small at all. If they ever try anything funny, I'll kick their balls till they shiver and shrink to the size of peanuts. Yes, Im not kidding. Im gonna kick their family jewels so hard till they won't ever celebrate Father's Day. Don't mess with me Im telling you. I can be very nice and nasty. Don't judge my book by it's cover!!!

Phew, felt a tiny wee bit better after getting that out of my chest. Really piss off. Gotta go now, it's late. Nite!

2004-04-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

Hello people out there. Im finally back from my LONG vacation yea? wheehee. During this vacation season, so many so many things happened, until I sometimes felt like I just went on a roller-coaster ride for months.

Oh ya, and before I proceed, I just wanna let some people know. Please DO NOT link me to your blog without my PERMISSION first! Okay?

Well, back to the topic. Just finished my first year in poly. Felt both happy and sad. Happy because Im now a second year poly student and did okay for my first year. Sad because I really will miss my old classmates, Huimin, Manping, Joni, etc...Im not in the same class as them in my second year, so sad, will really miss them, hope we can still eat lunch together. Well, Im satisfied with my new classmates *grinz*. And guess what, Tina jie is in the same class as me, lolx, Winnie too. Shiok. Our class should be fun. Cheers 4 our new class.

Hmm, to prepare myself for the new semester, I did something to myself...hee. Something simple, but I got alot alot of different comments. Some people said I look like ghost, and some say I look like Egyption Princess, LOL. So much difference. Even my coach said I should be the lead actress in The Ring, and instead of coming out of a television, he said I would come out of a coconut tree, and Tina jie, would be e supporting actress who will come out of banana tree. LOL, so crapy. Today had alot of fun playing tennis. Had a mini rally with coach. And Tina, Christine and Me made coach run alot by returning the balls he shot at us at all ends of the court. LOL. So funnie, even Tina hit balls that he can't return, how cool is that huh? wheehee.

Well, coach ask me to go to KL for a friendly match with other people from other countries like Malaysians, Thais etc. He said go play not with the mind of winning, but rather, gaining experience. And I really wanna take this chance to learn something, and play. But my parents won't let me go, especially my dad. Sometimes I really wonder, what can I gain from my parents being so over-protective of me? Yes, perhaps I won't stray and do something stupid like smoking, drinking, gambling etc, but come to think again, Im turning 19 this year, and after all the years of being so 'protected' by them, I do know what is right and what is wrong, and what I should do, and what I shouldn't do. Right? But just why? Why can't they have faith in me, to let me go just a little tiny bit? I'm not asking for total freedom. I don't like total freedom too, but can't they trust in me more? Maybe they trust me, but not the world. But then, as I grow older, I have to step out into this world and they can't be there for me to protect me always. But God will. And...sigh. Nevermind, don't wanna talk about it anymore. I don't wanna get upset over this. No point.

And sorry i ain't got a tagboard in here. No space. Sorry people.

2004-04-01T15:03:00.000+08:00

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SCOLD VULGAR WORDS!!!! Especially those who feel that the world owes them something. For goodness sake, GET A LIFE, n GET REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're NOT the center of the universe!!!!!!!!

2004-03-24T15:05:00.000+08:00

Good day everyone. *Stretch & yawn* owww, i'm terribly sleepy. For the past few nights, haven't been sleeping well at all. Keep waking up in the middle of the night and find myself staring at the dark ceiling of my room. But yesterday was the only night where I slept throughout :) But it's still not enough you know. Hmm, for 1 day, I need at least 10 to 12 hours of sleep. lolx. Really like one pig. On the way to sch, met TKY, and I was like a walking zombie, and he was simply speechless when I told him I needed at least 12 hours of sleep. Hee. Okie, lets juz take it that I need 10 hours, so to make up for the past few days of lost sleep, I need about 30 hours of sleep. WOW. Incredible!!! I can really be the next sleeping beauty.

Now I'm having C# programming lesson. Eww. It's really ewww. Really don't like this subject. Don't understand a few things. And totally no mood to learn. Holidays are really near the corner, so I guess that's why. Can I skip lessons please? Don't feel like going to school for the last week. But even if I did come, it'll only either be the facilitator's sake or my perfect attendance sake.

Later I'm gonna have CAD test. Hope I can really score in this last test. But I doubt I can score well. No more confidence in CAD anymore. 2 more weeks of school. Can't wait. Most of my friends are gonna change their look during the holidays, to start Year 2 with a brand new look. They encourage me to change too, but what can I change? No matter how I look, I'll still look the same. Or should I be a cookie monster and dye my hair blue?!?! lolx. If I really did that, I wouldn't be able to step inside my house without the fear of a chopper flying straight towards me.

Well, I have some sort plan what I'm gonna do during the holidays. On tue and thurs, I have to go play tennis. Sat or Sun, I would go swimming to tann. I've really really got uneven tann, and it really makes me look like I have pigmentation disease. How to even out the tann? Anyone wanna join me for swimming? Gals only please. lolx, guys, dun even think about it. Muahaha.

Orite, I've blog long enough for now. Our facilitator is coming any minute. TATA

2004-03-21T18:02:00.000+08:00

Hello there! Took a small vacation away from blogspot, for two simple reasons. 1st: I'm having trouble with my internet connection. 2nd: I need to be alone, to think things through.

Last friday, I was having one of my favourite lessons, CAD. And during the quiz, I totally went *blur*. I didn't know how to do. Even those who weren't good in CAD, knew how to do it. But I was sitting there, staring at the screen, feeling so helpless. Then after submitting my all-gone-horribly-wrong quiz, I remembered that Sharm msn to tell me that Coach sent an email to us, so I decided to check my school email before I leave. At that time, my mood was already declining slowing. Then when I read his email about our schedule for our tennis training during our holidays, my heart sank real low. I saw my name listed in the 'Beginner' group, while my other friends were in the 'Intermediate' group. I used to be around the same standard as them, but now, I was the only one dropped to the 'Beginner' group. Do you know how that feels? TENNIS - the game which I was interested and quite good at. SINK, sinking lower and lower. Even my grades are slipping out of my hands, slowly. It's as if all of a sudden I lost all energy to grasp things. My muscles are contracting. Smaller and smaller. I felt so depressed, I guess my face showed. Even Mr Eden Liew, my CAD teacher asked, why I looked so depressed. But all I could do was give a weak smile back. I kept this to myself. Don't wanna bother my friends anymore about what happen or how I feel. They have their own problems to take care of. So I'll just keep it to myself. And Huimin too have been feeling down lately. She didn't tell me, but I could sense it. I didn't ask her what happened, not because I'm not concerned, but because I don't wanna let her feel that I'm pressing her to say. I respect her decisions. Gurl, cheer up yea? I'll pray for you. I notice lately, everyone's been feeling down. Is it the weather? I really don't know. Then in the bus on the way home, I felt like crying. My eyes were wet, with tears threatening to fall.
Then on Saturday, I slept till 12.30pm. Haven't slept so long in ages. It really felt good. Then went online. Then my friend came and chat with me. Chat for quite long. And somehow, I didn't feel so down anymore. The truth is, I even felt a rush of happiness surging through me. Don't know why, but I always feel happy when we chat. :)
Oh yea, did I tell you that my sister have finally found a job? A real proper job, working in the lab. I'm still quite surprised she got a job based on that pathetic and horrible format resume she submitted. LOLx. Anyway, I'm really happy for her. Xing ku le!!! *Muacks* And to include why I'm happy is because, I won't feel jealous looking at her still sleeping whild I had to wake up early for school anymore!!! And sad, because, no one's gonna do the housework le. ;) Jking. Anyway, jia you!!! LOVE YA LOTS!!! Hope I won't have to say 'stress baby?' everynite now...LOL...only she'll know what I mean. ;)
Okie, I guess I've blog long enough. But it seems like nobody comes to my blog le. No more taggies. How sad is that? SO sooo sad :(

2004-03-19T16:01:00.000+08:00

These few days I guess I won't be blogging. Cos there network problem on my laptop. So can't go online too. Even my tag-board has problems. sorry

2004-03-17T11:04:00.000+08:00

Pardon me for not blogging yesterday, my beloved friends. I had trouble with my internet connection last night. Keep getting disconnected, and I was worrying big time about my RJ which I have to submit it by 11.30pm. At the end, I submitted just 2 minutes before 11.30pm. Before that, I was in a *shock* mode (bcos of my quiz) and worrying, I kept pulling and messing up with my hair. I think even my sis haven seen me in such a pathetic state before. Lolx. And chatted with Manping, Huimin and Samantha. Crapped so much, so funny! They'll trying to bully me, but opening their big mouth. Gosh, especially that Samantha, she's got mouth the size of a humongous watermelon size :x LOL oops, a slip of my tongue again. :p

Okie, I shall blog about yesterday. Yesterday when I was really in a happy mood when I came to school. I'm still puzzled why I'm so happy. Perhaps I got up from the correct side of my bed. I'm telling you, I was so happy that I even wore a skirt to school. Now, it's really a rare sight to see me wear a skirt. Not because I don't look good in skirt, and I'm not trying to say I look very good in skirt too. But I seldom wear skirt bcos of some reason and also because wearing skirt is so not convinient. I can't cross my leg when I'm sitting, or walk with my legs open like gonna do a split anytime. Erm, I'm so not like a girl eh? Hee. Then someone spoil my day. I still can't believe he's such a 'small air'. I know, F&F. But I just can't help but feel like hating him again. His actions really makes the cancer cells in my body increase. Not that I have cancer, but everybody have cancer cells in their body. Do you know that? Well, I'm sorry to my teacher. Won't do that again. So you must make make huimin and me your flower girl yea? Lolx ;) shiok. I will definetly look so cute with flowers. Pardon me for being so BHB. Hee.

Well, now having C# programming lesson. Lucky Prof WJ in my group. If not I will feel so lost. Tks so much fren!! Well, I really can't wait for the last day of school. So excited. Lolx. Really waiting with bated breathe until I feel like I'm suffocating now. Hee.

Gosh, just heard from huimin that my fren's mom just pass away. I'm once again back in *shock* mood. Why?!?! I'm sorry, Shaz. He put out a brave front. Always joking with me, but now, I realised that he feels so helpless and sad. And instead of me, consoling him, I even joke with him like everything in the world's perfect. When actually it's not. Really sorry. He's not my best friend, but he's still one of my friends whom I am comfortable, can joke and do work with.

I better go now. BYE people...

2004-03-15T09:52:00.000+08:00

Sorry people, didn't know there was something wrong with my tag-board. Hee, I very blur wan. Thx 2 huimin for telling me. :) No wonder I was wondering how come nobody tag in my board? But don't you people worry. It's all repaired. Hee, sorry for any inconvience caused. I know alot of people are dying to tag at my board eh ;)? So now, tag on people!!!

I trimmed my fringe le. I did it last night, in-between advertisment while watching tv. LOL. And I forgot to sweep the hair off the table and floor. Wheeheee, Kamila, so you shld know watta do arh, go and sweep and mop the floor, dust and polish the furniture, and hmm...wash the clothes. Oh btw, do you all know who is my kamila? lolx, guess ba. Anyway, my fringe doesn't look as bad as...erm, tina jie :x Lolx. It still looks presentable. Oops. LOL. Anyway, I better not blog too much on tina n my 'future bro-in-law' le, lolx, cos smone is barred from entering my blog. So if you're still here, you should know watta do eh? If no, then I'll give you some instructions. Move your mouse to the top right hand corner of this window and click on it. Muahaha..n go to jie's blog.

I haven't had my daily dose of medicine for very long, so pardon me for my madness. I feel like getting more an more insane. Especially when at home. I'm totally incontrollable. LOL. okokie...i gotta go. TATA

2004-03-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

Wheehee!!! I've finally completed my blog, with the picture at the top. Izzit nice? Put in alot of effort to do this. Hee, hope you guys like it. Well, didn't know 'Butterful Effects' was a movie till Huimin ask me if I watched it. LOL. She must be thinking I'm alittle unsound, dunno the movie still put this picture. Hee, well, I just found this picture nice, that's all. Maybe when the movie shows on tv, i'll catch it!!

Okie, there's a secret I've been hiding from you all. :x But I guess it's about time I spill the beans eh? But please, keep it to yourself, though I know there're quite a few people reading my blog, but I just simply hate it, let me repeat it again, I really HATE it when you like someone and you go round bothering people and telling them you miss them you want them, you love them. It's really irritating to the person listening to you, moreless the person you like. Some people out there should jolly well know what I'm talking about. Okie, back to the topic. I somehow have a special feelings for someone. It's somehow feels good, to like someone. But it can be painful at times. But that's life isn't it. Just like what Forrest Gump said, 'Life is a box of chocolate, you'll never know what you're gonna get'. How true is that? Well, I'm still not sure why I have this special feeling for this guy. Is is true? Or is it just my imagination? Sometimes, I think he likes me, well, most of the time, but then again, I'm very afraid that it's just my imagination.

Okie, shall stop blogging here. It's already 12am. And I'm kindda tired, but still watching 'The Replacements' on tv. Tomorrow gotta go school, sigh, kindda dread it. Nite people.

2004-03-13T15:42:00.000+08:00

Hello there again. Didn't blog yesterday, because I was busy changing my blogskin, hee. Took me hours to change this, and I stayed up to 1+am (got nagged from my dad), and it's still not perfect yet. For some unknown reason, the big picture which was suppose to be at e top is missing. So I shifted everything up, to cover the blank spot. It still looks blank though. Will try to improve it soon. Oh ya, the current song in my blog is 'Only Hope' by Mandy Moore. It's taken from the soundtrack of 'A Walk To Remember'. Did you watch it? It's a bitter-sweet romance, based on the novel written by my favourite author Nicholas Sparks. Really touching. I kept re-reading that book, I think for about 5 times? lolx. That's considered very little already. There are books which I kept reading for countless of times. Hee.

And did I tell you that I hav a new daddy? lolx. I mean 'daddy', not my real biological father. You know, like kids having role play. lolx. Childish eh? shall keep his identity a secret, shhh, because he said cannot tell. So me being such a filial n obedient daughter, i shall zip my lips. hee. But I wan a 'mommy' because my 'daddy' doesn't sayang me. LOL. So daddy, you'd better listen up, hurry go find a mommy 4 me!!! I'm waiting!!!

So bored, staying at home. Staring at my computer screen, totally nothing to do. So please, someone, can you tell me what to do? I think I know, I shall go watch video. Hee. Oh ya, tomorrow they're gonna show 'Parents Trap' on TV. And let me tell you, I've watched that for almost a 50 times. Not kidding. I can pratically remember all their lines. Lolx. They're also showing 'The Replacements'. I'm nuts. Channel 5 and Channel i should pay me for advertising for them. Lolx. Another show I've watched for a dozen times is 'Sister Act' whooshh. Hee. Gotta go now. Tata

2004-03-11T14:13:00.000+08:00

Really wanna thank a lot of people, for showing their concern for me. Don't worry yea, I'll be fine, soon. I've really forgiven and forgot about it le. And forgetting it doesn't mean total forget about the incident, but rather not to bring it up anymore. And after I did that, (which is really not easy to F&F) I felt that a big stone which have been weighing down on me, has finally been lifted. Last night chatted with kor, and we worked things out between us? At least I hope so. Anyway, its really time to let tings go yea? No use to keep holding to it. Don't let history repeats itself le.

By the way, I'm really happy for Tina jie jie. Though I haven't really seen them together yet, but I use my imagination (as you probably know, my raging hormones always makes my imagination run wild ;) ) to picture them together. So so so cute. I feel like writing a story on them. It's really very sweet. It's just like melting milk chocolate in your mouth. Sooo sweet. I see them so cute, I feel so envious. LOL. I think I must go find a bf le eh? ;) jking. But I must say it again, its really sweet. I can even imagine them getting old together, sitting on rocking chair, carrying their grandchildren and singing lullaby to them. Owwww…okie, I'm going too far. LOL. I must really thank him, for making my jie so happy once again, after all the hurt she's been through. Thanks, 'future brother-in-law' :p Cheers to both of you!!!! Yammm Seeennggggg!!!!!!!!! Lolx.

Okie, I gotta go n take a shorty shorty nap. So tired. Haven't been sleeping too well lately, despite the rain. I simply LOVE the smell of rain at night. But I'm still in school, so no such smell yet. Hee. Buai buai!!

2004-03-10T09:04:00.000+08:00

I've been doing some really serious thinking. And I guess it's time to let go of everything and forgive and forget. I've been holding on to the hatred far too long enough, and i'm tired. I ask myself so many times, who and what am I? and the ans I get is i really don't know. I don't even know how to move on from here, how to survive, and how to be myself again. Who is the real me? What is the real me? Is there a real me in the first place? Or am I just a faker? When I look at myself in the mirror, all I see is my shadow, without any image. Is that what am i? A shadow?

To you know who you are. I'm sorry. Sorry for my fucked-up attitude. I think the real reason why I behaved the way I did was because I didn't know what to do when u told me u liked me. I'm lost, and scared. So the only way I think I could deal with it was to run and hide behind hatred. Sorry to cause you so much hurt. I can't undo the hurt, but I guess I just have to move on, stop running and hiding and face the reality. No hard feelings yea? still my kor?

To another fren who has always been there for me like my counsellor, I really want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for being there for me. Though we hardly talk, but I'm really greatful to you for tolerating my nonsense for so long. And sorry too. I don't know sorry what, but i just feel that i need to apologise to you. I promise, i'll remember your deep-breathing exercise, and shouting at the sea, just hope I won't trip and fall inside. And I also promise not to cry anymore. I will keep everything inside. Just give me a little time, time to heal.

To all my gd frens around me, really thankful to God for giving me friends like you all. I really think, if I don't have frens like you all, I guess I would probaby be suffering from depression by now. :) Don't worry abt me, i'll try my best to find back the real me. i just need more time. I guess after this semester, during holidays, I can do some deep searching. Just pray for me. That's what I need, prayer.

Writing all these really makes me feel like crying, but I can't cry, not anymore. It sounds like some goodbye note yea? LOL. Now, everything i do, i feel that its so fake. especially my laugh and smile. just let me fake for a few more weeks till school ends this semester yea? and I promise, when school reopens, there'll be a brand new me...i hope...

2004-03-05T08:48:00.000+08:00

orite, im back blogging...wheeheee..im sorry im no where 2 b seen yesterday, cos i hav been buried behind e book which manping lend mi. im totally engrossed in the book. n guess wad? i finished it le!!!!! whahaha.

yesterday on e way home, i saw tis guy in e bus, totally engrossed in his magazine, n make a guess wat magazine izzit? its not playboy, but fashion magazine! gosh, im nt saying guys cant read it, but he's like really into in, n he looks abit sissy too, so i guess dat explains it huh! tok abt fashion, there's a guy in my class who's dressing is a total fashion disaster! really an insult to those people who design his clothes, bcos e way he matched them, i really can laugh. im nt trying 2 say im a fashion guru or freak here, but if u see e way he dresses, u'll totally agree wif me. okie, 2 defend myself, i'll briefly describe to u his dressing. he wears tis t-shirt, wif 3/4 jeans (which by e way, sux on him), n sports shoes wif socks pulled up high. can u imgaine dat?!?! it makes me feel like im back in the 60s. oh, n did i mention dat i totally loathe tis guy? i tink slightly more then jeremy. cos i even bother to tok 2 jeremy, but i cant even b bothered to tok, moreless look at tis 'fashion disaster'. he's really a sore in my eye, really unfortunate to be 2 b in e same class him again tis semester. may he rot in hell! lolx. dun mess wif me ppl!!

2day im having CAD lesson. hmmm....dunno if i shld b happy or not. gotta go le...tata

2004-03-03T23:36:00.000+08:00

im worried now. cos tml is C# programming test. n let me tell you, no matter how i try, i juz dun seem to get the hang of it! n i really cant afford to gt D again. i really dun wanna retake tis toopid module. now i understand y william aka namayhamayha is so stress out bcos of his programming too. izzit programming? i tink so. well, william, u're nt alone, im stuck too. but lets juz hope, i wont go as insane as him. hee..

k, i better go study le. nite nite.

2004-03-03T15:58:00.000+08:00

im currently reading tis book which my dear fren, manping lend me. Its really very nice to read. And I'm already addicted after reading a few pages of it. That's why I haven't blog as much as I feel like I would, hee. It's a christian fiction novel, in the form of journal writing. And in there, it mentioned that writing journal is just like writting a letter to a really good friend whom you can trust and will never laugh at you, how true is dat? its very very true. And I guess why i really like this book is because I can really relate to the girl in the book and how she feels. It's exactly how I feel at times. And sometimes, I find it rather scary. It's like someone's spied on you, and decided to write your lifestory. This story book has only 248pages, and it already cost S$22.90. It's considered expensive for such books. And this story comes in series, and my friend bought all!!! pei fu pei fu! lolz

Yesterday nite, I spent quite some time pondering over another RJ question again. Pengz, its dat Jay la, it seems easy, but then again, not quite as easy too. lolx, so contridicting eh? den chat wif my fren till v late!!! den at e end, i had not enuff slp. shucks, i cant get cuter le...lolx...im mad.

okie, i can go home le...tata ppl, dun miss mi..

2004-03-02T14:56:00.000+08:00

whooohoooo...im back, i bet u guys miss me so muchie much, lolx. 2day i woke up slightly later then usual cos last night slpt at around 1 plus. i juz couldn't fall asleep!!! kept tossing n turning round n round my bed till my pillows fell on e floor...den i saw my sis slping so swtly, n i cant slp!!! so i woke her up, muahahaha. i v bad eh? lolx. i woke her up n make her tok to me, whoohooo, den we tok tok tok. she noe more of my frens other than her own frens...lolx. so shiok arh, cos tok tok tok. lucky her bed is juz beside mine, hee. though i have hmmm...3 pillows, n 2 bolster on my bed, I still must rob her pathetic 1 pillow n 1 bolster, lolx. if nt, i'll occupy half her bed. n when she ask mi, where is she going to slp if i occupy half her bed, i said, u slp on e floor!!! MUAHAHAHAA. n i'll oso add, u belong in e dumps. lolx, i v bad eh? always bully my sis. hee. But i LOVEEEE her alot alot alot...MUACKSSSSS....let mi now declare my undying love for here now, oh sis, I love u wif all my heart, GOSH, so disgusting. lolx. It isn't Tiger Time BUT Puking Time!!! but i really love her. she's e best sis, n e onli sis i'll eva want. Love u lots. really thank God for giving such a sis.

last night, i was quite...dunno how to say. cos my parents were quarrelling..real bad..n i was like, shld i stop them n tell them how i feel? but i dun tink i hav dat guts yet. When parents fight, the kids suffer and are the ones who suffer the most. Don't the parents even tink abt dat b4? but lucky, i chat wif some of my frens online, to cheer me up. plus my C&C teacher arh, haiyoo, gave such a diff qn for RJ. argh, tink till my brains harden n cracked.

early tis morning, met Tina jie at wisma Mac for breakfast. bought peixuan breakfast too. den took 111 back to school le. den quickly submitted my RJ. guess wat, 4 lunch, tina, huimin n me ordered pizza. lolx. cos e canadian pizzia, buy 1 get 1 free ma, so we gt 2 LARGE pizzas to eat. n goodness me, all of us onli ate 2 slices each. how to finish 16 slices of pizzas?!?! den we quickly call our classmates to finish it. lolx, n i tell u, e whether is damn hot loh, plus i was wearing tis long-sleeved black turtle neck T. i was like going to have heat stroke any time. n v 'suay' loh, another exclassmate of mine wore a t-shirt which LOOKS like mine, though it's different. den dat huimin la, keep saying we wearing couple's T...oh puulllleasseeeeeeee.....lolx.

okokie, presentation time is coming, better go now, if nt dat teacher, ehem...lolx. tata ppl.

2004-03-01T16:34:00.000+08:00

hi, im back again. well, i've started to get used to my team members le, at least one of them works. thx :)

k, u wanna see my lala castle im building?

cool eh? kla, gtg le...my lesson haven end...later still gt tennis....sigh...tata...

2004-03-01T09:20:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!! e teacher changed grp le!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!! no longer team wif huimin n manping....grrrr...nt happy wif my team members...sigh...wat a day 2 start e week..sian 1/2.

2004-03-01T09:11:00.000+08:00

heeloooozz ppl, im back again. hee..okie, now im in school, eating my prata...whoohoo...shiok...oh ya, today my sis finally gt an interview, at NIE. lolx...after so long, finally gt an interview eh? ;) Anyway, wanna wish her all e best!!! tink of cute moi, den wont b so nervous, or tell them u hav an extremely cute sis, then they'll comfirm employ u, lolx. BTH me rite? lolx...muahaha...gd gd.

hmm...tina jie hav gt a bloggie le!!!! n she keeps complaining its so difficult, lolx. Lets give her 3 cheers to support her eh? Here we go: Hip hip...HURRAY! Hip hip...HURRAY!! Hip hip...HURRAY!!! okay, tina jie, see tis Le'er so gd, though 'blind', but still treat u so gd eh? lolx. i tink im nuts...but wat kind of nuts? hmm...hazlenut, cashew, almond, pistachio, macadamia, peanut, walnut...hmmm. Which nut m i? i tink im PISTACHIO NUT, y? cos pistachio nut in chinese is call 'kai xin guo', which direct translation to english is, 'happy fruit' lolx. so im a happy fruit...lalala...i've gone seriously bonkers.

oh yea, did i tell ya dat our sch's deputy principal drove me n 2 more of our classmates out 2 eat in his fantastic 8-seater car to eat fish-head-curry? gosh, until now, i still cant believe this. My sis even have difficulty remembering her deputy principal's name, n hardly even see her principal walking around in school. gosh...

Btw, did i tell u dat im now constructing my Lala Castle?!?! i haven finish refurnishing it yet. its still in progress. u wanna see it? but dun get jealous arh, my sis turns green wif jealousy every time she see my beautiful beautiful castle. Bad news, cant post my castle up now, cos having some problems, shall post it later ba.

I really looking forward to this saturday, cos im going swimming wif my sis n my sec buddy, whoohooo, so shiok. its been a long time since we went swimming 2gether le, or shld i say, floating 2gether? lolx. cos we dun really swim, juz float, wif our hands acting like a duck's wing, flip flop flip flop, lolx. Well, at e same time, can go sun tanning, isn't dat fantastic? shiok arh. after i get my black skin, im goin 2 surprise ppl!!! shall nt tell u wat i'll b doing though. wheehee....okie, gotta go now. class by right should have started. but my facilitator still isn't here. HE IS LATE!!!! lolx...9.10am...okokie...he's here now...tata

2004-02-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

hello!!!!!! im finally back here to update my bloggie le...lolx...didn't noe my blog so porpular wor..so many ppl wanna read..:p...nowadays arh...i getting more bhb again arh...die la. i thot i was finally cured, but, sigh...i dun tink so arh. so i guess, u ppl hav 2 bear wif cute moi 4 awhile eh? lolx. aiyoo...now v late le...so i shall blog all i wanna blog tml in sch ba..tata ppl..NITE MUACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-02-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

been upset lately...especially when no one toks 2 mi, i will start tinking, n smtimes, tears will flow. haven been slping well too, thots juz keep running thru my head...n i oso scared...i seem okay on e outside, but in e inside, im in a total mess...n im really sorry too...really wished i could turn back time, n undo my actions...

really thks to all those ppl who came n ask mi wat happened....im really touched...really...thx alot...didn't noe so much ppl care 4 mi....really appreciate u guys, n love u guys too...muacks...

one more ting...dun take e ppl around u 4 granted...especially those ppl whom u love...cos u nv noe wats going to happen tml....treasure wat u hav...

2004-02-23T08:44:00.000+08:00

i realised alot of ppl are unhappy right now...n it feels like its going round in circles. when can tis circle stop?!?! i guess, it'll continue round n round n round, making us all dizzy. But we cant stop it from going round, so i guess the only thing we can do so as not to feel dizzy is to change our attitude ba...change e way we look at tings...try looking at tings from a different view or perspective. cos we can nv escape the circle by trying to run away......oh ya, n i nt refering to anyone in particular yea? juz a general comment...*lopsided smile*...so look towards e bright side, n nt e dark side...

2004-02-22T00:15:00.000+08:00

gosh...im now sooo sooo sooo paiseh man...i juz came back after having dinner wif my sec sch pals...den tried to sign in msn...but they said my either my password or my acc name wan invalid...how can dat b?!?! den i thot muz b some1 hacked into my acc n changed my password...damn him/her...so i tried to change my password, but cannot...so left wif no choice, i had to create another acc. n i lost all my contacts....argh!!!! den i add those ppl, whose email i still remember...den i decided to try to sign in e old acc again wif another password...n gosh...i could get in...lolx...so at e end, i was e 'damned hacker' lolx...biangz...so paiseh...later those ppl tink i mad man....lolx...sorry lei...all those who i add...lolx, if u add my new contact, juz delete it ba...hee...sorry 4 all da trouble...

oh yea...in da afternoon...met mann n went paragon n taka to shop n window shop...lolx...den later went back to hmv to wait 4 liddy n bz...den bz told mann say she'll b late...so liddy, mann n me went to healp search bz present 4 liddy...den she oso bought alot of tings, she oso bought a swatch watch which cost hundred plus...gosh...i tink, total, she spent abt 1k...money 2 her like running water siah...lolx...den later we waited to mega, den had our dinner at e korean restaurant there....shiok arh...she ordered so much food....n when e bill came...it cost $106 plus....-_-'''...eat till my whole body wanna split open...but it was real gd...n liddy treat us...lolx.....muack...i'll miss her...she's going to aus 2 study le...

den at toa payoh terminals...while i was happily toking 2 my fren...i heard sm 'oei' loudly....turned to where e sound was n gosh...it was dat amplifier melvin...wif a gal, mayb his gf ba...lolx...den he shouted pacifier so loudly dat every1 turned at mi...wah liew....so paiseh lei...he called mi pacifier cos i hanged a pacifier on my bag...but cannot meh? lolx...i blushed man...idiot amplifier...argh...lolx...i wanted to shout back, 'shuddup la, amplifier' but dare nt...cos i was too paiseh le....

shucks...batt low le...gtg...tata...nite

2004-02-19T08:43:00.000+08:00

cheesie ppl out there...i was reading The Guardian by my fav author Nicholas Sparks, in the bus on the way to sch...n it was alittle scary, abt a guy who's a little unsound, had killed his wife a few years back bcos of jealousy, n now he went to another town with a different identity n met this woman who looked like his wife...but tis woman love another man...so this murderer stalk her day n night....he noes every move she makes...gosh...when i alighted, i wasn't really back on earth yet, im still at the in-between my storybk world n e real world...lolx...n when i was walking to sch, i oso felt like e woman in e bk...lolx...keep looking behind me..lolx...i tink im too absorbed in e bk le...lolx...

sian, 2day is sci module...argh...dunno learing wat shit again...i juz wanna go n slp...or read my bk...nite nite ppl...dun wake mi up frm my lala land...im off to lala world, looking for e ideal lala prince....muahahaha....lolx...im seriously ill in my mind...

2004-02-18T14:49:00.000+08:00

helloz....oh...i gt some pic i 4gt to post a few weeks ago...hee...sorry manping...i post now yea? hee...tis pic v cute wor...mayb cos gt me eh?!?! *winks* lolx...jking...but i tink its e onli pic me n manping took 2gether...hee...manping is a very nice gal..hee...last time i thot she v tao wan wor..oops...but, oh boy, was i wrong...she v frendly wan..n hor, v sporty, in our sch basketball sch team arh...plus she noe alot abt cars....dun play play arh...lolx...see la..i tok so much, until i almost forget 2 post e pics...

see...e pic nice eh?!?!

k, den on wed, 3 days b4 v-day...i went out wif tina n huimin....cos celebrating tina jie bday which falls on v-day lei....so swt hor...we even brought our tiaras..n took neoprints wif it...so cute cute cute!!! later i shall post it up too....whoohoo...we r e 3 princesses..princess nana, lala princess n fishy princess...woooooohoooo....so cool....den michelle came late...den joni n her bf..we all squeeze 2gether n ate at edo sushi restaurant...erm, e food...okie la...no comments...lolx...

2004-02-17T12:54:00.000+08:00

hi there...shall blog about yesterday ba...hmm...wait a min, let mi recall wat happened arh...hmmm...yesterday same grp as huimin n manping..whoohoo...so cool lei...nv thoht dat we'll b in e same grp...but tis wk is e last wk we're gonna b in e same team...out teacher took manping out frm our grp....shucks man...but den again, e teacher v funny wan...n dat huimin...every C&C lesson, she'll always tok abt sex...lolx...ah doi...mayb she's a future sex expert in disguise?!?! lolx...

den after our lesson, it was almost time for tennis le...

gtg now...sorry...continue later

2004-02-16T09:30:00.000+08:00

i v long nv blog le...lolx...no mood 2 blog...now actually still no mood wan...but gt nthing 2 do...so blog loh...

for e past few days....thurs, fri, sat...had alot of fun...cos my sch had open hse..den dat SLC president so funny, he make me laugh till my tears fell n my stomach cramped...his screw i tink abit loose....nxt time see him muz bring screw driver le...lolx..went home 2 tell my sis, she oso laughed till her faced red....lolx..my duty on those 3 days was to tend the MINDS booth...mi n peixuan tend it 2gether...den we keep using fabric paint to paint our t-shirt...lolx...so fun...im gonna buy fabric paint 4 myself n paint till i go crazy...

for e past few days...so shiok...no class, now gt class le, sigh...sian...den yesterday, watched e whole of MTV Asia Awards. den i slpt on e floor again...so shiok arh...my pillow pressed against my right eye till now, swollen. looks like single eye-lid....but when u look carefully, its actually double...lolx....but it feels terrible...like someone *arbish* me...lolx...sian..

dunno y, these few days whenever my mom or dad nag, i gt v irritated loh....ah doi..wat e heck is wrong wif mi?!?!? last night i prayed till i cried...so long nv had a heart-to-heart tok wif God le...so long nv prayed like i really meant it...after hearing yesterday's surmon, i felt...dunno how to explain...but i juz noe i felt different. oh yea...yesterday was my church 119th anniversary...v old eh? e pastor yesterday said..its easy to praise God when smting good happened, but tat isn't all...e challenge is, can u still praise God when smting bad happens?!?!

class is starting le...gotta go...tata

2004-02-12T09:58:00.000+08:00

arhhhh......so sian arh....now in sch 4 dat open hse tingy....aiyooooo.....nobody here yet....sian....blog later...tata

2004-02-09T15:12:00.000+08:00

2day i feel lethargic...no energy to do anyting...no appetite too, but force myself 2 eat...cos after sch gt tennis, so i've 2 eat...i tink im going 2 fall real sick le...cos i've been feeling like dat 4 a few days le...i really hate it...it's been affecting mostly everyting i do...i juz hope i wont collapse...n my com gt alot of probs...nt enuff space to run my C# programme....den deleted hundreds of file...i oso dunno where i gt all those files...sian...dun hav e urge 2 go sch these days le...y do i feel so sad these days? m i sinking into depression?!?!? i hope nt....i tink i juz need 2 b mad again....den mayb i can b realli happy...

msn i tink having problems...cant sign in e whole day...

wind....pls blow me away, once n for all....

oh, did i tell u ppl dat i hav a square ulcer on my lips? yea...its square...e most unique ulcer...bet u haven seen a square ulcer b4 yea? lolx....wanna noe how i get it? it was cause by a fork loh...

gosh...dat huimin is currently having a laughing fit again...n boy, she laughing is really....half hic-cups...half asthma attack..n it seems like she's gonna hav a heart attack anytime...she's always laughing at e wrong time...even e teacher nxt door complain...lolx....terrible....i guess she ate laughing powder or smting...lolx...n she's wearing dat tiara i bought 4 her....ewww...try 2act cute...wait till i wear mine...lolx...kk, teacher here liao...tata

2004-02-08T22:02:00.000+08:00

heeloo....so long nv blog le...juz didn't hav e mood 2 blog i guess...

hav been playing yahoo graffiti v often these days...lolx...n huimin is seriously addicted to it..its really fun...n i tell ya, tis addiction is going 2 spread...juz like a deadly disease...lolx...

i haven been feeling v happy these days. dunno y. mood swing?!? pms?!?! i dunno...juz feel....weird...n i used to b v interested in tennis...but dunno wat happened...now my tennis really sux...even dread to go 4 training lessons...WHAT ON EARTH IS HAPPENING???? LILI, TIME TO WAKE UP, U TOOPID DUMBASS!!!!!!!!! i could tell coach was really disappointed wif mi...i messed up all my groundstrokes...n if i continue tis way, i'll sure b out of e sch team...n i really dun wish dat to happen, or do i?!?!?! its like, wateva i do these days r nt up 2 my usual standard...im starting to hav tis 'i-cant-be-bothered' attitude...shucks...im trying really hard, to get back my groundstrokes...but...mayb im nt trying hard enuff...on sat, went to EC tennis centre as usual. n coach was really fed-up wif me. he even shouted/screamed at moi....which is kindda rare...dunno....coach looks v haggard dat day...unshaven, n even changed his specs....which was really round...made him look like Harry Potter...LOLX...after training, a few of us stayed behind to practice somemore...n coach as us to rally with those small kids...biangz....n we lost big time...6-flat....yea...we didn't win any game...-_-'' so paiseh u noe...e most embarassing day?!?!? lolx...

u noe hor, mann went 4 a make over lei...e result v v nice...see liao, i oso wanna go...its really v nice...but ex loh...i dun care...if i gt money, or when i work, i wanna go...its v tempting...even gt frens wan....gt couple wan, gt individual wan...so many...argh...dun say liao...if u ppl wanna go n see, u can check-out e webby http://www.thebeautyboxstudio.com

gtg le...tata...

2004-02-03T08:43:00.000+08:00

elloz....guess wad? last nite i really slpt on e floor...lolx...it was shiok arh...though it was kindda cold n i had no blanket. u muz b tinking im outta my mind yea? gt bed dun wan bed, slp on floor...muahaha....but it was fun...going 2 slp like dat again 2nite mayb...mayb bcos of tis, i can really learn 2 appreciate my bed... :D

duhz...2day we're having sci module, n later going 2 hav enterprise test...argh...going to hate e day...shucks..

oh yea, i gave Tina morning call at 6.42am...n guess wad? she's still nt here...ohmigosh...now is already like 8.40am?? ah doi...she really can drag...hope she wont b late 4 her class...oh yea, toking of Tina reminds me dat im going out wif her tis thursday..to spotlight....whoohooo....gotta do alot of tings...so many ppl's bday falls on Feb...aiyooo...

i gotta go class now...tata

2004-02-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

hey there...juz had a v long tok on e phone with another of my best buddies, Mann...felt so much better...really thx...muacks...lolx...so long nv tok 2 her le...n we were like blabbering non-stop..lolx..we even tok abt American Idol III, and on dat William Huang's she bangs....lolx...really was funnie...thanks alot, gal...*hugs* oooo....btw, i tink my sis is secretly in luv wif dat william huang....lolx...oops...shhh....cos she keeps wanting 2 watch his video...gosh...i hope i wont get such a bro-in-law, but den again...if i really hav him as my bro-in-law, i'll ask him 2 sing 4 mi everyday....muahahaha

2day, i was so bored n slpy at e same time...so i took out my sleeping bag frm my cupboard n laid it on the floor....right in e middle of the living room....lolx...n i slpt there...lolx...i was like blocking ppl's path...but i couldn't care less...lolx...e floor was really hard i tell u...but i like it...lolx...soo cool...lolx...im mad..im going 2 slp on e floor soon...nt 2nite...mayb soon...den when i woke up...my sis n i watched Celine Dion concert...whoohooo....she's really a diva...so cool man...she really can sing..n she doesn't resort 2 like wearing skimpy clothes 2 get popular...unlike madonna...etc...n when she sang live...its juz like hearing her cds...really can blow me away wif her powerful voice...

kla...v late le...gtg now...tml still gt toopid enterprise test...yucks...accounts....ewwwww

2004-01-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

hi...juz had a v short chat wif one of my bestfriend...i dunno how 2 explain how im feeling rite now...upset? disappointed? fustrated? scared? i tink its a combination of all....upset, porbably bcos of our frenship, disappointed bcos she doesn't seem to understand, fustrated bcos she doesn't seem to get it, scared bcos im afraid 4 her...n lastly, i tink i feel terribly disappointed wif myself...i juz cant seem to stop tinking n blaming myself...it's all my fault...

u see, she didn't come frm a very well 2 do family...n i still rem, when we're in sec sch, her dad, the sole breadwinner, was warded in hospital....n she was really worried n scared....n i too was worried n scared 4 her...but now, she's working as a kindergarten teacher...glad 4 her...but cos we on our seperate ways...we somehow have drifted apart...she always plan gatherings...n i would always try my best to turn up...but there r some times, where i really cant make it...n i noe she's really disappointed wif me...but she denies it n say, it's alrite, she noes im bz...was there a note of sacarsm?? mayb...mayb nt...im disappointed wif her dat she doesn't seem to understand, dat in sch, i feel v stress...though had fun, but its competitve n stressful, n i need e weekends 2 rest as much as i can...n im disappointed wif myself dat i cant always give in to her...u see, she's nt e really strong gal...on e outside mayb...but in e inside, she needs sm1 2 b there...2 tok n listen 2 her...n she encounter alot of probs in work...usually when she's down, i'll take time 2 tok n listen 2 her....but there r diff probs everyday...n she's affected by them...i cant b there 4 her always...she needs 2 b more independant n overcome her probs...so smtimes i purposely dun call her back...nt bcos im cruel...but i want her 2 learn...n im v v scared...i'll tink 2 myself, wat if she's 2 upset dat she wans to CS, n im nt there 4 her? i'll feel guilty 4 e rest of my lives...den juz now, she told mi, she's going 2 a makeover..dats cost 200 plus bucks...n i ask her, y nt wait till mayb u've 2 attend sm1's wedding dinner or smting big event den u go...n she said her fren ask her 2 acc her...-_-'' im nt trying 2 discourage her...but i juz dun wanna see her spent money dat she'll regret later....or when *touch wood* smtings crops up n she needs e money?? i dun wanna see her in dat state i saw her in hospital...its really painful...but i told her, go ahead...if u really wan it, n who m i 2 stop u rite :) ? n she said...yea...n who was she 2 ask mi 2 go 4 e gathering rite?? was there a note of sacarsm?? den she said she nt feeling well...going offline....was i too blunt?? m i at fault??? e more i tink, e more i feel like crying...how did we end up 2 b like dat?? m i partly at fault? i guess....im really sorry....really sorry...we hav been through so much...n i really dun wish 2 lose her as a fren again...

sch is already v stressful 4 mi...is like so competitive...n keep getting Cs...feel so demoralise...n i really hope i can hav e weekend 2 myself...but now, im in a deliema, part of mi wanna go 2 e gathering...but another part of me wanna stay at home...i haven ask my parents yet...n if i ask them...they'll b reluctant 2 let me go 4 sure...as usual...im tired, really tired....nt juz physically tired, but emotionally tired...feel like crying it all out...but e tears juz wont come...smtimes...when tink of it, my throat will constrict, n it feels like im choking...really tired le...juz let mi go pls...im really sorry....4 everyting...

2004-01-30T16:47:00.000+08:00

heyoz heyoz...now im in sch...wheehee....so early...nthing 2 do, so blog loh....hee

yesterday i had so much fun in sch....thought it was really stressful.....so i accompany huimin and michelle to the staircase there and shout....lolx...they were really stressed out...so they shouted....gosh...i juz stood there....wif my mouth hanging open..

later continue....gtg now...tata

2004-01-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

hey hey 2 u ppl out there....gt alot of tings 2 blog....alot wor...but now cos im watching American Idol III and after dat i'll go 2 slp....cos im really exhausted...really need my rest....

nite nite ppl...

2004-01-28T17:00:00.000+08:00

wanna noe if im in e same grp as him??? .........NO....yippeeee....thank you God...MUACKS...

so irritated wif him...until i have to block him from my msn....n my frens too...lolx...always trying for ways n means to gain people's attention...wat an attention seeker...if he's eva reading tis: pls go reflect on ur sickening attitude. dunno y, but every single ting he does, irritate me alot...sm even piss me off...so dun blame me if im cruel...i've even put in my msn nick:
'Actually being loved by some1 is a wonderful thing, but being loved by him is a shameful thing!!' lolx...cruel eh...im nt trying 2 say, im irritated bcos he like him....its his actions dat n wad he did dat make me irritated....argh...dun push me to my limits....n dun mess wif me...

lolx...im heartless? lolx...i dun care wat u say or wat he say....go ahead and cry for all i care...gals can b as heartless as guys too...

dunno y i suddenly so defensive or so fierce oso...probably bcos after hearing from michelle, my classmate, had to say...im awfully disppointed with guys...n gals to...all i can say is, most guys are 'wolf in sheep's clothing'. im tired....bye

2004-01-28T08:20:00.000+08:00

2day, C&C module is going to change group....and im crossing my fingers n hope to die dat i WONT b in e same grp as him... PLS PLS, im begging....dun put me in e same grp as him......i hope i'll NEVER EVER be in the same grp as him....4EVA n EVA....amen!!!!

2004-01-26T08:40:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hey....wheehee....i v long nv blog liao...muahahaha...cos no mood blog, though i've gt plenty of tings dat i wanna blog....wheeeeee....

guess wat, now im in sch le....sigh....e pathetic 1 wk holiday is now over....it juz seem like we had sch yesterday.....sigh...y cant e holidays b longer? during e holidays, i really slack arh....almost everyday i wake up past 11am....n even in e afternoon, around 2pm, i would feel slpy again....m i pig or wat? lolx...no wonder my sis says my slping hrs is more than my waking hrs....which i guess is sooo true...

CNY..hmmm....i ting wat i like most abt CNY is nt e ang baos....but e goodies....lolx..but i cant eat too much...if nt later i fall sick arh...dun wanna fall sick le...

den on sat, there was suppose to have tennis training...but it was raining darn heavily....n it was sooo cold...i had 2 wake up at 6...den my parents ask me to sms e coach 2 comfirm dat there'll still b tennis...i sms him at around 6.05am n i waited 4 his reply...like a sch gal waiting 4 her crush to call her...lolx...finally he replied my sms...at 7.14....gosh...n he say yes, as usual.....arghh...i was hoping he will say tennis is caceled....sigh...so my mom went down wif me 2 e bus stop, e shelter me wif umbrella....MUACKS mum...we missed e bus....argh...waited so long...n i look real toopid wif e tennis racket loh...cos it was raining...n i was carring e racket, n ppl look at me like im nuts...rain still play tennis...lolx..den my hp rang....it was sharm..she said tennis is canceled!!!! whoooohoooooo.....lucky i missed e bus man...lolx...so went back home...but i couldn't go back to slp...so i read my storybook loh...den my mom told me say later when e rain nt so heavy, going 2 my grandaunt's hse...sigh...onli me n my mom....my dad n sis still slping....ah doi...

tis yr, cos it has been raining like non-stop, so we hardly went hse visiting...so e ang bao i collected was really pathetic...n most of e angbaos i gt was like onli 4 bucks....-_-'''....n even my rich uncle gave 4 bucks....biangz...he's really a miser wan...nt cos he gimme alittle money...but in real like, he is also like dat...sigh...dunno watta say him...

oh...n sat, i played monopoly wif my sis....n she bought e most expensive estate...queen astrick park n nassim road...gosh...n she built 4 hses n 1 hotel there....n its like everytime i neared there....im praying real hard not to land there..n she left me to buy e cheapest estate....geylang n serangoon....sigh...im always stoping at geylang, n she's always stopping at queen astrick park..yea....at e end i lose....cos i finally landed at queen astrick...n e rent was like 15000...plus i was v v slpy....so after e game, went to slp le...

gosh...8.40am liao...gtg class now...cya..

2004-01-21T14:25:00.000+08:00

hi wonderful ppl out there....wanna thank so many ppl there....4 ur concern...im so much better le...though yesterday nv really slpt well, but really thks...MUACKS everyone!!! Luv ya lots...

yesterday my fren noe dat i was scared...den he say, no need scared...cos gt alot of stars in e sky looking down on me...looking after me....hee...so swt eh? hee....really thks alot, wor...pank kiss...lolx...so now i change my blogskin 2 stars...hee...cute??? but i still dunno y...can chat so much...like v gd frens...but when in person, we both like strangers like dat...lolx...soo weird...

den last night....was chatting until v late...had conference wif huimin, mp, n ronny....crap all da way...so funnie wor...
Advice to mp (manping, nt minister of parliament hor..lolx), huimin: dun tink much le yea? leave everyting into God's hand...He noe's e best...hee.

went to bed wif my sis around 1+...but we both still couldn't slp...lolx...so we tok loh...hee....tok abt alot of tings....told her abt wat happened in sch....n e updates on all my frens....lolx....oops....hee....my sis n i v close wor...lolx...really luv her lots....MUACKS...i tink onli she can tahan my nonsense...lolx....MUACKS MUACKS....lucky we both slp side by side....den i nt so scared...hee....

kla....i gotta go n help prepare n cook e reunion dinner wif my sis le....yum yum...tata ppl....n Chinese New Year!!!! happi holidays...

2004-01-20T21:57:00.000+08:00

Im so frightened right now...fightened by wat i saw...

my sis n i were suppose to go 2 e nearest NTUC 2 help our mom buy groceries 2day, and at e same time, eat MacDonalds 4 our lunch...we atually wanted to go earlier...but cos we woke up late...n had our breakfast at 11+am....so we decided to go NTUC later...den around 1...it started to rain...so we decided to go at 2pm instead....fortunately it wasn't raining at 2...but we still brought a brolly wif us...den as we were walking out of void deck...we saw dat e police had sealed e nxt block...n e 1st ting dat came into my mind was....did sm1 commited suicide??....n i saw dat there were like 3 police cars parked...n some of the policemen were interviewing sm ppl at e void deck...but i couldn't see any body..so i thot mayb it was like sm loansharks came n sprayed paint or smting like dat...den as we walked further....some of e policemen were like looking at us...gosh...den suddenly i froze....i saw e green tent which i dread 2 see....i was near e lift lobby...n there was smting white sticking out of it....gosh....my worst fear came true..

i dunno wat exactly happened....sm1 commited suicide, gt murdered, or accidentally fell....but all i noe is dat...wheneva such tings happen, im afraid...but i dunno wat im afraid of....i juz feel scared...i tink i told u b4 rite, dat there were quite a few of such cases that happened in my block le...n it took me abt 1mth to get over e most recent wan dat happened at my block.....sigh....is my area so terrible??? i tink i noe y ppl choose my estate 2 jump....probably bcos it has 25 storeys...

y is it muz ppl take their own life? mayb they tink dat it seems like its e end of the 'road'....no where or no one to turn to..but dats e ting isn't it, our life is in our hands...we have to choose e way...or make e way....isn't it??? or m i too naive, too simple-minded to tink tis way?

but 1 ting i noe or learned is dat: dun walk below e windows, or corridors, cos, u nv noe...if sm1 or smting drops on u...u may b crushed too....

2004-01-19T13:19:00.000+08:00

Cheesiiiiieeeeeee.......im back ppl.....anyone miss me? wheehee....so long i nv blog liao...hmm..cos i was busy ba...n smtimes, i wanna blog, but lazy to blog, and smtimes no mood 2 blog...hee....sorry...i gt alot of tings i wanna blog again...cos so many so many tings happened...sm gd, sm bad...sigh....

okie...e gd ting is now im having holidays!!!!!!!!!! e bad ting is....my holiday last 4 1 wk onli arh....sigh....my sch v 'nieow' wan....sigh...so anybody who wanna date me out...u better hurry....muahahaha...lolx...jkidding...

wah...i tell u arh...last sat suppose 2 meet angeline at e bus stop at around 8.30am....but i decided to take bus 31 instead of mrt...n i thot probably e bus journey would probably b around 1 hr plus....so i left my hse early....at e end...i waqs like a idiot...reaching e bus stop at 7.54am....goodness me...i didn't noe e bus journey would b so fast...but after around 1 or 2mins...wan yan...another fren frm tennis alighted a bus....lolx...we were like....ohhhh....so im nt e onli idiot here afterall...lolx...no offense yea? hee.....we played tennis 4 abt 5hrs....under e scorching sun....oh gosh....n im telling u....now i hav a v horrible horrible tann....n i smtimes, i dare nt go out wif my tann seen, cos it really make me feel like im v dirty, n haven bathe 4 a long time...lolx...some parts white...sm parts brown, sm parts red....gosh....n my legs is like milk chocolate n white chocolate....ewwwwww......so horrible i tell ya....sigh....

though 2day is a holiday, but i still hav 2 go 2 sch 4 tennis training loh....6 - 8pm somemore....sigh...sian arh...den tis cuming sat, e 3rd day of CNY, i still gotta go east coast there 4 intensive training arh -_-''' sob....was planning and looking 4ward 2 go out wif my old buddies, den now....sigh.....boring.....

den last night, i chatted wif huimin, n i felt really guilty....sorry huimin...if i knew it'll turn out tis way, i wouldn't hav said those tings i said le....really v sorry....nxt time, im nt going 2 say anyting le....im gonna keep my big fat mouth shut...4 gd...huimin, so sorry...dun tink 2 much yea? juz do wat u feel u hav 2 do....n let God do e rest..truely sorry... :( hope u'll 4give me...

2004-01-15T10:47:00.000+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.....hellloooooooooo.....yozzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........hmmmm....i gt alot of tings to blog now u noe...until hor, sigh....i dunno where 2 start....n i hope those thots would remain in mind....n i wont hav any brain-block...hee...

okie....1stly erm....oh goodness me, my train of thot is broken le...so i'll juz blog wateva dat comes into my mind...so sorry if e sequence is really horrible....

oh yea...yesterday on e way home in the bus, i was reading my book. Titled: 'Man & Boy' by Tony Parisons. dun tink dirty....its nt cos im interested in boys or wateva arh....y i borrowed tis book is bcos its v heartwarming....about a father n a son relationship...den yesterday i was reading e part where e son's grandfather was dying...n he kept his illness frm his family, 2 protect them....so swt loh....n e grandpa is those kind dat would do anything to keep his family save.....n when he was on his death bed, gasping 4 breathe, his son finally said 'i love you, dad' 4 e 1st time eva, and after he said dat, his dad left e world 4 gd.. 4 e 1st time eva.....gosh....n my tears were swimming in my eyes....my left tear said to my right tear, 'u jump, i jump'. but at e end both didn't jump 2 their deaths....they're now both savely at where they belong. I had 2 stop reading, and look out of the window, cos if i continue 2 look down at my book, my tears would surely fall....n e bus was really crowded...n if i cry in e bus cos of a storybk, i feel v paiseh....

den when at home, i chatted wif my old pal frm sec sch....n on nxt sat, i would go to 2 of my best buddies hse 2 'bai nian'...hee....so fun....haven done it b4...gonna take lotsa photos....hee...den after doing my rj, i went to e study rm....cos my sis was in there playing e piano....n all of a sudden, i felt like playing 2...so yesterday was like e 1st time i touched n played on the piano after many months....i played 'chopstick II', a duet wif my sis....lolx...so funny...i keep losing my consentration...lolx...sorry ya? hee....we'll play again 2day yea? hee....

oh yea.....u ppl wanna noe wat my sis n i gave huimin 4 her bday prezzie?????!!!????? lolx....its v v unique n speacial wan hor....v priceless...we gave her a acceptance letter from Woodbridge Hospital which its created...nt e actual wan....lolx..den i tink bcos of tis, everyting she say rite, ppl wont believe her, cos they say she's from IMH (Institude of Mental Hospital) lolx....which i tink is sooooo true....lolx...plus there was pictures in e letter as evidence...n those pics v funny...muahahahaha...

2004-01-14T08:38:00.000+08:00

wheeheeezzzeee...these few days nv blog....whahahahaha....sorry...hee....i no mood blog lah....dunno y lei....lolx...nthing much 2 blog abt oso....mayb im losing my urge 2 blog.....gosh....n when i lose e urge i wont blog wan loh....hee...so whahaha...u ppl cant read my bloggie liao....lolx...dun b sad ppl....n dun miss me 2 much....lolx....if u wanna blame hor, blame dat fishy fish....cos she's e one hor...she make me hav nthing interesting 2 blog abt....lolx...huimin...u shld noe wat i mean....lolx....

oh yea...n did i mention dat 2day is huimin's bday??? yea....she 1 yr older....n she still ain't acting her age!! she keeps saying she wans 2 be 17 4eva..lolx...young ppl wanna be older, old people wanna be younger...erm....so is huimin old eh?!?! lolx....mayb oh...who knows rite? okie...i'll better stop my sprouting nonsense 2...lolx

2004-01-12T14:31:00.000+08:00

Hol@aaaa 2 U.....yes....i mean U....e one reading my blog right now....wheehee....oh yea, n hola 2 every1 too....haven blog 4 e past few days le eh? hee....dat coz i was bz....sigh..bz wif alot tings....come to tink of it, e onli ting i can remember doing was tennis....lolx....its true, i spent almost e whole afternoon at East Coast Tennis Centre. Actually i was suppose to meet Tina jie after my tennis at around 11am...cos dats when e training ends...but i wanted to stayed awhile longer to practice more loh...n i tell u, e training was tough manz....shucks....much tougher than e usual training...n our coach says, he'll increase e intensity of the training as we go along loh...oh nononono....n e most embarassing ting was, there were like many small kids there loh, at e age of around 6 - 8 yrs old ba....n their tennis skill was like....WOW...all of us...ooohhh & ahhhh....n our mouths were opened like e sized of tennis balls loh...n hor, they v cute lei....lolx....

e coach divided us into 2 grps loh...n nicholas e most experience player in our team was on e other grp....n our coach was like choosing ppl 2 to his grp....2 practice serving...n i was like crossing my fingers, hoping dat i wont be in dat grp....lolx...cos when i see nicholas, i feel v stress arh...lolx....dunno y oso...v pressurizing...lolx...shhh....lucky he dunno my blog URL....muahahaha....but at e end rite, coach put me in dat grp oso arh....biangz...angeline n me was e onli galz there loh....den when i need to serve to nicholas....oh gosh...keep making mistakes....n he was like at e other end, getting impatient....lolx...oops...dunno y, my serving dat day really sucks 2 e core, cant get it right...e left side of my stomach oso really hurts...n e sun was scorching...n i had no cap...:'( i endured wif e pain in my stomach till e end...n e coach was v nice, he asked me wats wrong wif my stomach, den later i found out frm him dat i've stitches...dat means indigestion...he said dat if i go open up stomach, it'll b extremely small....lolx...watta do???? so he say nxt time i muz eat Baaanaaanaaa....lolx...den huimin sms me at 11 plus, almost 12 n said she juz gt up....gosh...like pig man...;) den she asked me where wld i be going 2 shop, den i said nt going le...she asked if i wanna go shopping wif her n rosy, but i was v v tired...so i say dun wan loh....sorry gals, really wanted 2 go out wif u'll wan...nv go out wif rosy b4...hee...nxt time yea? hee...

wah...i tell u arh....after tennis i went back home n slp all e way...so tired, i didn't even noe when our new piano arrived....n when woke up....ouchie ouch.....shucks....my whole body muscles were aching terribly....nv ached until whole body b4...gosh...den on sunday, i finally found a white cap at Fila...wheehee....whoohooo.....oh yea, i oso bought a harmonica...lolx...4 no reason...muahahaha....i can go home blow n drive e neighbours mad....muahahaha...so fun...den i parade around my hse, wearing my white cap, wif my tennis racket....lolx....wow...i went round saying i look like a professional tennis player, so sporty man....lolx....okie...go puke...lolx....even my mom oso say, klah stop showing off....lolx...so funnie...

i tell u arh, tis morning when i was at e bus stop waiting for the bus, i felt smting staring at me, so i turn....n gosh...there was tis small white doggie looking at me!!!! n he's so cute....i tink he's secretly in love with me, cos when i look at him, he coyly 'smiled' n looked away.....oh...so swt!!!! lolx....i pat him b4...n his fur is so soft....oh gosh...i tink im in love....muahahahaha....oh no...i 4gt 2 eat my medicine 2day...lolx..

kk....i better go now....dat toopid ronny is in my grp 2day...lolx...n his encouraging my white hair 2 sprout...lolx...tata ppl

2004-01-09T14:46:00.000+08:00

heyoz ppl....wheehee....im back.....sorry hor, yesterday i nv blog, cos yesterday hor, i was bz doing my rj loh....e teacher lah...give e qn v hard wan loh.....make me tink tink tink until my hair wanna drop liao....lolx...

but i gt alot of tings 2 blog arh....n i dunno where 2 start blogging...wheehee....okie la...i juz let my thots flow....muahahaha....i didn't really like my module loh...enterprise skill wor....eeee....plus we're now doing accounting loh....wat depreciation, wat capital allowance, wat taxation....yucks...im nt born 2 b an accountant....lolx...n im nt born 2 b a tax collector....muahahaha....

though yesterday lesson was boring, but i had fun e whole day wor...i keep laughing....dat huimin la....n dat bias ronny....all bully me....huh.....but i did gt my chance to get back at huimin....muahahaha....she loh, she say i nv drink enuff milk, cos though im 19 tis yr, i dun look like im 19, i look much younger...-_-''' so i wanted 2 tickle her, but she ran, so i was chasing her outside class, she even even tried 2 run away frm me by going down e stairs...lolx....but i stood behind a wall, n manping join forces wif me, n bluff huimin dat i've gone back to class, wow...i muz tell u, manping's acting skill is gd lei....future TCS actress siah...lolx....den dat toopid huimin, fell into e trap loh, n i gave her a terrible shock...lolx...n u shld hav seen her expression, it was like she was constipated....lolx...she was so shocked dat she juz dropped on e floor, laughing n screaming at e same time....n i was there...on e floor too, laughing till my tears came out...lolx..though i gt back at her, but she went back class n told ronny loh....biangz...n roony was like saying...'lili, so disappointed in u man...so old liao...still like dat...-_-'' he say me lei....sob....he suppose 2 support me wan lei, cos we gt e same unique ser-name....lolx....but he side huimin, keep shaking his head....lolx...toopid ronny....muahaha

juz 2 tell u ppl...e C# programming test is yucks....eeeeee......after e test, i went home wif huimin....i v gd hor, took mrt home wif her, cos usually i take bus....huimin, muz b grateful hor....lolx....den on e way, we tok abt....stuff....lolx...galz stuff...den saw her fren....den in e train...gosh...it was so packed man....n my toes got stepped by a lady's high-heeled...ouch....she onli stepped on e flesh part lei....ow....v pain....n in e train, we had no space to hold....den e train jerked, n i lost my footing, n grabed e nearest ting 4 balance....n e nearest ting was huimin's fatty arms....lolx....nt i wanna say she gt fatty arms wan hor, is when i grab her arms....she said so loudly dat i grabed her fats.....muahahahaha....den later it was her turn 2 lose her footing....lolx...den she grabed my....bones....wif flesh....muahaha....

kla, sigh....i gotta go le...sian....later i hope my teacher wont ask me qns....cos i dunno anyting....muahahaha....tata ppl...

2004-01-08T10:36:00.000+08:00

Hola every1!!!!!!!!!!! im back....lolx....e time now arh...its 8.30am....usually i reach sch at 8.30, but 2day, i reached sch juz a few mins b4 8......cos dat huimin la...ask me come 2 sch at 8, den study for e C# programming test 2gether.....lolx....when i gt alighted my bus, i saw e 3 musketeers frm far....huimin, her senior n winnie....lolx...den we all walk 2 sch 2gether....den in sch, huimin ask me go blog....biangz....come sch so early 2 study, den at e end, ask me blog....she gundusamy anot? lolx ;)

okie, i shall blog abt wat happened yesterday yea? hee.....yesterday i had fun in skool....hee....cos yesterday was my favourite module, Culture & Communication. C&C so fun u noe, cos can debate or act our....so cool...other modules nt as fun as C&C loh..plus hor, its e onli day i same grp with huimin wor....lolx...n when huimin n me join forces.....wooohoooo....we're e wonder women i tell ya...even if we're debating on e losing side, we can still win wor....ppl shoot us, we shoot them back..we're really fierce debators....lolx....dun play play arh....lolx...nowadays galz r getting more n more qiang le!!!!

Then after class, we actually can go home wan, but gt SLC meeting loh....actually i dun feel like going wan, cos i wanna go home early 2 study 4 test ma.....but at e end i still go loh....muahahaha....i so guai....so innocent....how can skip meeting eh?? lolx....den huimin going 2 mobil with her fren, so i gave her money n ask her help me buy e coffee ice cream...feel like eating smting cold....lolx..she ask me go wif her, but i refuse....cos....aiya....onli she'll noe y i dun wanna go, eh ;). den when she come back, she came back wif my ice cream......n my money....den she say her fren treat me....biangz....i dun wan!!! i noe, its free treat, eat loh...rite? but im nt tis kind of person wan...i dun really like 2 accept treats wan....lolx...cos probably it's bcos if i accept treats, den it'll soon bcome like a bad habit loh...hee....no offense hor..:) plus hor, i onli noe huimin fren by name onli lor....den nv even tok b4....ask me accept his treat....biangz....so paiseh....so i ask huimin 2 return e $$....she dun wan!!! idiot siah...lolx...so i pass 2 hanfeng 2 help me return him..muahahaha....im a smart gal eh? oh...nono...im born intellegient...;)

my sis sms me, told me she going 2 but mac fillet 4 dinner, n ask me how many i wan...i was very hungry loh....so i say i wan 3....lolx....im serious...i was really hungry. den when i reach home, its my mom buy wan, n she onli buy 2, cos she say cannot eat too much...she say i siao...lolx...but dunno y, my stomach was pain again....its e upper abdomen dat hurts....n i dunno y loh...i ate u noe...n i even finish my lunch...but dunno y pain...:'( den at e end i at 1 fillet onli...e other wan i let my sis eat....so at e end, my sis finish 3....whahaha....she say, lucky nv buy 3, if nt, i gotta eat 5 fillets....lolx...

aiyoo....my legs muscle all cramp lei.....v pain manz....die la...saturday how do training??? btw, anybody noe how 2 go 2 East Coast tennis centre?? i dunno how 2 go....im a road dummy/idiot...lolx....

kla, i better start my work liao la.....tata ppl....dun miss moi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;)

ps: huimin, i can tell now ur blood really flowing le....but erm....i tink flow abit 2 much 2 ur head la...lolx.... ;)

2004-01-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

aiya....tml den i blog la....2day i v tired....muahahaha....chat e whole nite...no more energy 2 blog le....lolx....nite nite

2004-01-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

ellooooowwww!!!!!! wheehee.....oh ya, huimin's msn nick now says she's gonna do a mouth trap to shut someone's crappy mouth....lolx....wah....seldom i see ppl setting a trap 4 themselves wor...lolx...i wonder where she's gonna set dat trap...near e mouth...hanging frm e nose? LOLx...juz like mouse trap eh? lolx....muahahaha....erm...actually she need dat mouth trap 4 herself...wanna noe y? lolx....cos her heart doesn't pump enough blood 2 her brain...dats y all e craps r coming out...n hor, always kou shi xin fei arh....lolx..kekekee....oops....*im innocent* ;)

oh yea, sigh, yesterday tennis arh...sigh...could play, but when comes 2 the physical training part, our coach told us to skip (yea, wif e skipping rope) 500 times!!! lolx....actually its nt really alot lah...cos last time, my dad, sis n me always had competition, skipping nonstop for more den 1000 times...hee...but yesterday my stomach was really painful (gastric)...den had 2 skip...my tummy was like having seizure....really pain...my coach knew, but he still say, do slowly, com'on...u can do it....ohmigosh...but at e end....i endured n did all 500....owwwwwwwwwwwwwww......learnt my lesson 4 nt eating...but i really no appetite mah...i noe, no appetite still muz eat abit rite? if i buy e food, den i wont finish wan, n bcos of tis hor....some 1 say i v rich qor..so i dun eat loh...dat some1 shld noe who im refering 2 eh? lolx

2day, i didn't bring labtop 2 sch...wheehee....my bag felt so light, n when i carry it, it felt as if im floating...lolx...oh ya, y no need 2 bring my lappie is bcos 2 day we're having our lauto CAD esson in e com lab....n i cant sign in msn there...dunno y oso....sigh...so toopid wan...den after lesson gt test....aiyooo....sigh....dun say liao la.....

kk...i v tired le...need my orh orh now....i go lala land le....niteZ!!!!!!!!!! muack!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-01-05T17:04:00.000+08:00

Say Cheezzzzzzzzz man......wheehee....nw im currently so bored...sigh...stuck in sch, when everybody else can go home... :'( its nt because im naughty, teacher punish me hor....its cos i gt tennis later...sob...i oso wanna go home lei....but cannot...den later, i gotta go home myself....sob....cos usually gt Tina jie 2 accompany me, but juz now Tina went home le....she is so sicky sick....poor jie....sigh....u muz take wor....okie? rest lots....cos tml gt test....hee....hope u get well soonz....i'll pray 4 u.... :) n all e best 2 ur test tml!!!!

sigh...so wat m i suppose 2 do nw lei? i've still gt an hour by myself....nthing 2 do....sob....so boring!!!!! ppl....gt anyting 2 entertain me?????? i v bored here...ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! i hate boredom.....wanna noe y? cos boredom makes me go mad.....really mad....im warning u....lolx....do u tink im serious?? well, actually i oso dunno....wheheee...told ya, im nt in e right mind....

now my tummy dun really feel gd....gt alot of 'wind' i tink....lolx...same as tina...but tina is more of indigestion, but mine...dunno lei....upper stomach pain...especially when i move...ouch...n smtimes my waist hurt to...ouch....wat is wrong wif me? izzit bcos i juz drank milo 4 breakfast, n soup 4 lunch onli? gastric??? hope not man....

30 more mins, n im going le...gotta run 10 rounds....sigh...hope i wont collaspe...dun feel like eating...n dinner i tink onli will b drinking soup ba....but dats onli if my mom gt cook, if nt...i'll go hungry....n die in my slp? lolx....touch wood...lolx...

kla...i'll stop bloggin here...tata...

2004-01-04T15:00:00.000+08:00

Wheehee ppl...im back again....i tell u...im now so excited n happi......noe y??? cos i've gt alot of new pics 2 post up here....woohoo.....it'll b so fun.....e pic is me n my dear Tina jie....wheehee....we both look so...erm...im trying 2 contain myself...but i still cant help it....i muz say it....we both look so cute....lolx....oh no...i said dat word...oh gosh....oh shucks...lolx....nvm...

we took dat photo in cineleisure, after we went back 2 sch during e holidays 2 study loh....wheehee.....n Tina say, tis cuming sat, after our tennis, we'll go there take somemore....wow...isn't dat exciting man??? i really cant wait 4 sat 2 come....oh....manz....i can feel my blood pumping real fast...lolx...dunno y arh...i these few days v happy....lolx

Frm left: Me (Lala) & Tina (Nana)

Frem left: Tina (Nana) & Me (Lala)

Frm left: Me (Lala) & Tina (Nana)

Frm left: Me (Lala) & Tina (Nana)

Arn't we cute, eh????????

oh yea....i juz came back frm church...i went 2 buy some shorts 4 tennis n some tank tops...wheehee.....so fun....den went to Plaza Singapura 2 eat our lunchie....wheehee.....den went carrefour, 2 shop 4 our groceries, den we went home le....hee....but i still cant find a white cap....i need 2 wear it 4 tennis...on sat onli...cos e sun there v hot wor....so i hope i can get it by fri...cos sat i need it le...hee.....hmmm....

aiyoo....tml sch start liao....oh nonono....i gotta wake up early again....oh nononono.....i wonder if i can wake up manz....even if i wake up, i'll probably b staring at my funny image in e mirror again...lolx....n tml oso gt tennis....till 8 wor...biangz....tml whole day...9am - 8pm....in sch!!!!!!! oh shucks....n gotta run 10 rounds le....oh no...dunno if my body can take it liao...lolx...cos during e holidays, i've been eating all sorts of rubbish.....lolx....junk food....u name it man...oh dear me...

okie la...i better nt blog 2 long...later u ppl say i v naggy....lolx....wheehee....buahahaha....muzhuazhua...lolx...toopid laughing pattern...lolx....tartar...

2004-01-03T22:28:00.000+08:00

Laalalalalalala....im here again!!! lolx...m i blogging 2 much? lolx...last time, i blog 2 little, n now i blog 2 much...lolx...im really on extreme ends....muaahhaha...

juz nw chatted wif huimin...aiyooo....chat wif her arh...my hair can really turn white man...lolx...always either take v long 2 reply me arh...or nv reply wan arh...lolx...ah-doi....lolx...

juz nw i play gb again with dat twit....oh no......oops.....erm.....sorry...its eric...lolx..see lah...dat time i say wrongly he scold me :( ...lolx...but dat cos i scared if i say his name, he angry ma....dun say oso wrong...lolx...i lose 2 him in alot of games again arh....sigh....shucks man...n nw, huimin's william...erm...i mean gb partner...lolx..wanna challenge me wor....biangz...lolx....cos he wanna earn money....lolx....den i muz ask my shi fu 2 impart some skills 2 me, i musn't let william win...muahahaha...i so bad hor...lolx...

buahahaha....lalalala....i tink i v mad 2day wor...my medicine like no use like dat....sighz....oh yea...yesterdat e whole night i cant slp wor....n i really mean e whole night...onli like around 6 or 7 den i finally slpt...lolx...mayb cos i 2 happi le ba...lolx..i oso dunno y these few days i so happi...lolx...i mad liao...lolx....

kla...i going offline le...online 4 v long liao...wheehee...tata ppl....nite nite......MUACK...

2004-01-03T12:46:00.000+08:00

Wheeheee....heelllllooooooozz.....wassup man? lolx...aiyo...see lah, yesterday play tennis under the scorching noon sun, now my face n arms abit red red....but my face is mostly cheekbones n nose red lah....its wat i called 'sunkiss' muahahaha....e sun kissed me....whahaha....now, how rare is dat? lolx....im mad....but i wanna get tanned somemore....wheehee...mayb i shall sit at my balcony at home at noon, n tann....lolx...oh no...im really goin bonkers...but i've juz taken my medicine....lolx...i tink muz wait 4 dat medicine 2 take effect....lolx....lalahoohoo...lalahoohoo....

oh yea...hav u ppl noticed dat i've been bloggin more these few days? yesh rite?? lolx...i tink i gt e urge back ba...lolx...dunno y, now every minute, i feel like bloggin, whahaha...im mad...i told u, im nv saint...oops...i mean sane...lolx...

u noe wat? i now feel like playing gb...but dat twit nt online lei....den dunno who 2 trash...lolx....i play wif other ppl, i dare nt trash them, but play wif dat twit...muz xin hen shou la.....muz trash arh....lolx...see lah...i told u, im nt in e right state of mind now, so sorry...oh yea....n hav u ppl noticed dat i've stop my cutie nonsense????????????? lolx....dunno how come i stop oso....whahaha....cos im mad....lolx...insanity, is my policy?!?!?!? muazhuazhua...okokie...i better go off now, or u'll ppl will suffer....muahahaha....

2004-01-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

WooHOOOOO!!!! im now over e moon man.....chang'er, it's time u move over man....im coming 2 take ur place...lolx...

i bet u ppl wanna y i so happie rite? cos actually my blog no tagboard....den William, he msn me, n ask if he could help.....so swt of him!!!! den he told me my blog codes gt smting wrong....but even so, he still helped me....isn't dat swt of him? lolx....but when its done, e tag was in....but there was double effect....words writing over words....it was so messy...den he tried 2 help me somemore....but still cant...even when i take out e tag codes, it was still double effect....sob...den i had 2 do all e tings again....but as i was doin half way, william came n save me again....tis time, e codes reall work..!!!! yippee yea yea....i was sooo happy....really over e moon....muacks william...oops...lolx...really thx wor...now ppl can tag le...wheehee....i so happy, i feel like kissing everybody....MUACK MUACK!!!!

juz finish playing gb with dat twit again...oops...lolx....lost 2 him alot of times wor...sob...but i didn't give up so easily...i muz hav e fighting spirit....i fight on.....n yes!!! i finally won...a few times too....lolx...but overall....i still lose 2 him...lolx...so e lesson 2day i guess is, nv give up...always fight, though u didn't win in e end, at least u did fight....wheehee...lolx...

ohmigosh...so late le...n i so tired.....need my cutie slp le.....im going lala land liao....nite nite ppl....n MUACKZZZ!!!!

2004-01-02T17:27:00.000+08:00

Heyoz ppL...wheehee....tell u smting....im so tired now...woke up early tis morning....at hmm....8.15am....i noe, its nt v early...lolx...but cos now im having holidays, waking up at 8 plus is extremely early u noe...i kept pressing e snooze button....i refuse 2 get up...cos i saw my sis slping like a pig....so unfair, i gotta wake up earlier than her....huh!!! we're suppose 2 hav e fair share of everyting....even e hrs of slp....muahahaha....im mad....lolx....haven taken my daily dose of medicine 2 control my madness....lolx....oh dear...i better stop my crap....

okie...back 2 e topic....erm...where was i? oh yea, i woke up so early in the morning....cos i was meeting Angeline, n my dear Tina jie 2 play tennis at Yio Chu Kang tennis centre...wheehee....Angeline booked 2 courts at 10 - 12pm...n we were suppose 2 meet at 9.45 at Yio Chu Kang's mrt station control....but when i woke up....i was still slping...i had 2 stand in front of e mirror, staring at myself trying 2 wake up...LOLx....i noe...its silly...n i tell u, its really a funny sight...lolx...with my eyes half-open, half closed, tousled hair, t-shirt v crumpled n showing one side of my bra-strap, n my shorts almost dropping....lolx...gosh...if i went out like dat....ppl would STARE!!!! lolx....okie....im wandering off again...

okie....back 2 e topic...n when i finally finish staring, tying my tousled hair, n changing...with my eyes half-closed...(lucky i chose clothes dat were matching..lolx)...i packed my bag, n gt my tennis racket, off i went 2 e living room....oh gosh...im running late!!!! i quickly speed off 2 e bustop, but no 1 in sight, so i guess i missed e bus....oh shucks...den i waited for about 15-20 mins 4 dat toopid bus!!!! n as i was waiting....i called Tina 2 tell her i would b late....e phone rang....n rang....n rang....then suddenly....it stopped ringing...but there was total silence....

Me: Hehehello???
A slpy n muffled voice: hmm...huh?
Me: Tina????
Muffled voice: hmm...yea...huh?
Me: OHMIGOSH Tina!!!!! dun tell me u're still in bed????
Muffled voice: Huh? oh...yea...y?
Me: We're suppose 2 meet 4 tennis??!??!??!?
Tina voice returned finally: huh?? OH SHIT!!! oh yea....so sorry....oh no...Leilei...(dats how she pronounce n distorts my name...LOLx)...sorry...u all go play 1st...i tink i'll b there at...*pause*...10.30am....so sorry..
Me: Im gonna kill u.....lolx....aiyooo....okokie...erm...u halp me tell angeline i'll b slightly late 2...hee...

N when i finally reached Yio Chu Kang....no 1 was in sight again....sighz....so i waited for another 15mins....then i couldn't stand it anymore, so i called tina, n tina told me angeline juz woke up too....oh man....n she's on e way....thank GOD!!!! but even though she's on e way, I still had 2 wait for another 15-20mins...oh man....im always...n let me stress it again, ALWAYS early, though im late....lolx....

Then Angeline n I went to change our booking time to 11 - 1pm....n her fren Dennis came along too...wheehee...nice 2 meet n play wif Dennis...i had fun!!! Den, Tina came strolling in....lolx....We played under e scorching hot sun until i felt giddy....cos dehydrated...lolx...den we went to buy water....bla bla bla....oh yea....did i mention dat, there was tis handsome guy...n when i say handsome, i mean (Tall, Dark, Handsome), was there too? Angeline n Tina said he resembles MTV VJ Utt....hmm...wow....lolx

after tennis, we den took a bus 2 Ang Mo Kio 2 hav our lunchie...wheehee....den all of us headed home le....wheehee....dats e end of my story here....now im at home, waiting 4 my mama 2 come home, den we heading out again...lolx....

wow...i cant believe i blog so long 2day....lolx...1st time eh? lolx....muahahaha.....okokie...i gotta run....tata...

2004-01-01T15:43:00.000+08:00

Hey wonderful ppL out there...wheeheee....its a brand new yr....2004 now...but it seems like alot of ppl hav a list of new yr resolutions....lolx...but i dun hav....lolx...hmmm....i've gt nthing 2 do now...so bored u noe...

hee...yesterday i played gunbound with a twit...(oops...if he noes i call him twit, he's gonna scold me, but then again, i dun tink he reads my blog)...lolx...haven played gb for so long le...n e 1st game, i trashed dat twit....wheehee....i trashed him a few times....woohoooo....but he oso did trash me a few times....:(...lolx....but it was fun...wheehee...so many mths nv play liao....my aiming n shooting skills is still gd...hmm...perhaps im a born pro or genius archer...probably im Hou Yi's long lost sister...? lolx...yea yea...im full of crap....whahaha..

hmmm...2moro, all e pri n sec sch reopen after their long holidays...lolx...but my sch will start on mon...wheehee...we deserve dat xtra 1 day of holiday u noe....cos in tis 'special' poly....life is so stressful....plus with all those nice, but weird new facilitators....lolx...oops...

now, my whole family is clearing e whole house...lolx...early spring cleaning...lolx...n boy, my hse is really full of...embarassed 2 say, rubbish...lolx..it looks much cleaner n better now after those rubbish is gone :D

oh ya, u wanna see another photo i took wif my sec sch buddies? its quite blur la...cos it was taken using a phone...

oh no....my sis took n throw my favourite baby pillow....which i hav kept since i wass youngggg.....:'( owww......she say v dirty, so she throw....sob......but i still hav another baby pillow which my best fren bought 4 mi....but it doesn't hav my baby smell yet....cos dat new baby pillow haven senson yet...lolx...now i muz hug it real tight every night, 2 season it....lolx...

alrite...i gtg do some cooking n knitting le...tata...cya soon!!! muacks...

2003-12-31T23:28:00.000+08:00

oh yea...i 4 gt 2 post e pic i took wif my sec buddies...wheehee....but 1 of them is in Indo...so her sis took her place..lolx...anyway, they both look alike in some ways..

Frm Left: Mann, Lidyati, Siti, Mega (Mira's sis), Bao Zhen, n ME!!!

2003-12-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

Cheesie!!! Sorry...haven been blogging much, though its my sch holidays....sorry abt dat...hee...well, i've juz changed my blogskin, n i took most of my afternoon u noe...hee...i hope u ppl like it....but e unfortunate ting is, i cant put my tagboard in...how how??? i need some help here!!!!

e sch holidays r going 2 b over guys....sighz...in a way happy, in a way sad...i can no longer rot n decompose at home le...lolx...yea...its so fun 2 rot at home...u ppl muz try it sm time...but e bad ting is, if u rot 2 long, u'll bcome lazy...lolx..n dats wat becoming of me these days..wheehee..

oh ya, when sch reopens, there'll b another round of tests....oh no....n tennis will start again...n i haven been really exercising...hope we wont hav intensive training on e 1st wk...hee...or i tink i'll faint right there in the tennis court...sm1 call e ambulance pls!!! lolx....see, im getting mad le...dats wat e holidays r doing 2 me....muahahaha...madness....

haven been online 4 a few days, hee...cos i was bz knitting...wheehee...4 myself...im knitting a scrunchie....muahaha...i'll b e guinea pig, if it turns out nice, i'll knit 4 u ppl 2 okie...??? gals onli....unless, u guys will long hair wans 1...lolx...n also if i hav enough wool....but i haven finish knitting yet...lolx...it'll take some time...

oh ya...2days new yr eve....n i wish every1 out there, a v happy new yr, n may u hav a great n wonderful yr ahead & always....stay happy always....

hmmm...dunno watta blog now...but i feel like watching 'Billy Elliot' now....any1 who has e vcd, can lend me? pretty pretty pls????

gtg...take care ppl...adios...!!!! muacks..

2003-12-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

Im StiLL @liVe!!! I"LL B BACK!!!!

2003-12-19T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hey hey ppL out there...im still in sch right now, n guess wat...its raining v heavily.....and it has been raining i tink....everyday...especially either v early in the morning, when people is bz goin to work or sch, or it'll rain in the evening, where people usually are on their way home from work or sch....sighz....wat a time to rain manz....aiyoo....i gtg eat my fries le....tata...

2003-12-17T21:38:00.000+08:00

How come no 1 tag in my blog anymore??? :'( sob sob sob sob...onli Sherrie tag...muacks gal...hee....e others...no kiss 4 u....huh!!!! u terrible terrible ppL....how can u nt tag in my blog??? i wanna complain!!! but i dunno complain 2 who oso...lolx....but i dun care...i juz wanna complain, even if its toking 2 e wall...lolx....i nt going 2 fren u ppl le...huh!!!

gtg le la...huh!!! nitez!!!! but no muacks...onli muack 2 sherrie onli...lolx...

2003-12-14T22:55:00.000+08:00

cheeZIE!!!!! heLOW!!! i tell u smting arh...i nw really dunno watta blog lei...n nt much mood 2 blog too....but dat huimin la....say muz blog....sigh....then blog loh...but 2day, nthing really interesting happen lei...so i oso dunno watta blog...sigh...

oh ya...test coming le...but i haven study a tiny bit at all manz...no mood....cos see my daily grade....then...sighz...like demoralise....dun even feel like studying...sigh...but still hav 2...

gtg le...i noe blog v short...hee...sorry ppl....nite nite...

2003-12-13T15:05:00.000+08:00

Cheese Cheese Cheesie!!! Cheese Cheese Cheesie!!! Hee *wink wink* like my new cheer??? lolx...v nice n cute rite? Juz like mi rite? hee....but hor, its oso abit lame la...lolx....dats me, cute but lame n mad...lolx....hee...oh ya, I haven continue my story yet rite? but im sure u ppl hav heard abt it in the newspaper or news rite? so...i'll nt say anymore la....later u ppl say i v naggy...*chuckle* but hor....up till now hor, nobody still dare to park their 'precious' car at dat spot....muahaha...all scared arh!!!

But hor...sighz...up till now hor, im still abit 'terrorized' by dat accident wor...smtimes at night dare nt slp..n smtimes, in e middle of the night, i get up for no reason....its juz like last yr, sm1 commited suicide in my blog, frm leaping off frm the 25th storey....n i couldn't slp peaceful for about 1mth lei, cos my neighbour's made saw the body...n she describe it...ohmigosh...arms detached...ohmigosh...i better nt say le....later i dare nt slp again....but e ting is, tis recent accident, no 1 gt killed....but i dunno y im still scared....dunno scared abt wat loh...juz scared....v toopid rite? sigh....but watta do? Dats me loh...dats e reason y my nick is...sillylili lah *chuckle*

Does u ppl noe where I m now??? Make a quick guess la...hmm...im in sch!!!! Actually went to sch 4 car wash wan, but cos raining, so it was cancelled...n now...im in e library...nt reading/searching for bks...but...watching 'I not stupid' vcd...with huimin, winnie n William...hee...both winnie n William took e 'couch'...left me n huimin sitting/lying on e carpet...lolx...but it was still nice...quite cozy 2 me...but I wished I had my quilt/comforter with me...n my baby pillow...lolx...dat movie title is wat I'm suppose 2 say 2 u ppl!!!! I'm NOT TOOPID arh...im a clever gal...lolx...hee.

Ppl!!! I gtg le...wanna concentrate on my movie...so funny...so tar tar...will try 2 blog latar if possible!!!

2003-12-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

Cheesie, ppl!!! u ppl really miss me alot ya? lolx...sorry...haven been bloggin, cos i really cant find dat urge to blog....BUT, im back le la...lolx..so try nt 2 miss me to much k??? later u gt 'xiang si bing' :D

Hmm...alot of tings happened...n sm of e tings, i dunno how to put them into words, to describe exactly how i feel, dats y smtimes i feel too fustrated 2 blog...

last night, around 3 plus am, i woke up suddenly, dunno y too...den starting tinking of tings...even thot of wat blogskin i wan 4 my blog...lolx...then suddenly, i heard tires screeching...followed my lound bangs, and glass shattering....it was so loud n horrible, dat i froze in my bed...i was 2 shock 2 move...cos i knew a car bang into smting....n i was afraid the scene would be like e terrifying accident in Toa Payoh recently, when a loud bang was heard in the morning, n e residents there looked out, n was horrified by e bloody scene, a man lying on e road, with an arm severed. eww.....i really wanted to take a peek outside e window, but i was really scared...n my sis was like onli semiconscious, despite dat loud crash!!! ohmigosh...she really slpt like a log man....but my parents opp my rm, woke up...cos im telling u, its really really loud..my parents went to look out of e window, so i dare 2 look too, my sis finally was awake too..but there was nthing on e road...nt even a single vehicle...so we all went back to bed...all went back slping...but i was still wide awake...cos i can still hear dat horrible sound playing at e back of my head....i clutched my pillow n bolster real tight...eyes, keep opening constanly, dunno y oso....then i heard some commotion downstairs...one woman said loudly in chinese, 'is u bang 1st'....den i knew, smting really did happened...so i sit up, n shouted 4 my parents, telling them wat i heard....my sis oso woke up...then we went to e window 2 look again....then i saw...e cars parked at my opposite block's carpark was nt in its usual straight line. but most of e view was blocked by trees, so we all hurried 2 e living rm, to hav a better view, n sure enough...abt 4 cars was damaged...1, severely damaged. e back of dat car was totally smashed!!! neighbours came out...then soon, the police came...n more n more police came...my sis n i stood there watching for 1hr...my mom keep asking me to go back slp, as e nxt day need 2 go sch, but i cant slp...but i watched till i was slpy, so i went 2 slp...

e nxt morning, e cars were still there, in e same position, n some of e neighbours were still there...but e police were gone....

aiyooo....i tell u smting...im darn slpy right now...really nt enough slp, n my muscles r aching....i'll continue e story tml ya? tata, nite nite....MUACKS!!!

2003-12-08T17:35:00.000+08:00

cheesie ppl...juz changed my blogskin...nice? heee.....but alot of tings missing...not fully done yet...but i cant update now...cos i gotta go for my tennis training now...later i'll improve it...tata...

2003-11-25T01:23:00.000+08:00

CHEESIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hihihihihihihihihi....extremely cute n adorable me is here to blog again lolx...miss me alot ya??? lolx

oh ya...i wont keep u ppl in suspense le...wanna noe wat happened dat nite rite??? well...e strange and unusual thing that happened to us is that...........................our stomachs were growling!!!! lolx....which seriously hardly happened at all...lolx...so my sis n i tip-toed our way to the kitchen, trying to make as little nosie as possible...but e moment we opened the fridge door....my dad woke up...n came to e kitchen too...lolx...we ate bread with nutella...lolx...at 1am plus....my sis ate 4 pieces of bread!!! i ate only 2...lolx...wow...nv had breakfast so early b4 man...lolx

well, 2day was e 1st day of sch...hee...e moment i walked to e canteen, i saw huimin n winnie...n huimin pulled me, ask me play yahoo pool with her...lolx...den....she ask me take pics...lolx...but i onli took a few...lolx...huimin n winnie were like taking anyting they see as props...n posing with them...lolx...even my empty tennis racket cover...lolx...really nv meet any crazy photo freaks like them...lolx..but i like taking pics 4 them though...lolx...fun..

2day we also changed classmates, but around 9 of my classmates were oso frm my previous class...compared to others, my class nt bad le la...lolx...but i still dread smting...better nt say la...lolx....

oh ya...i nv go tennis training today...cos my tina jie jie nt here...n i dun wanna go home alone...cos my bus stop v dark n quiet...eww...so i would b going training on wednesday with tina jie instead...hee.

den at night...i was darn piss off with someone man...argh...make my blood boil onli...but after chatting with other ppl...my mood was back le...lolx...thx...4 cheering me up...lolx...

wow...i blog alot 2day liao hor??? i better go liao la...lolx...dun miss me too much oh...lolx...muacks muacks MUACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2003-11-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

Say Cheesie, ppl....im back!!!! im so sure u ppl miss cute me alot ya? lolx...i tell u arh nowadays i lazy to blog...sighz....but alot of tings happened..but i dun feel like bloggin it down...nt cos i lazy...but cos...sighz...dunno how to explain...so nvm...lolx...

E previous day, i was so bored, so i decided to make a of tea for myself. i noe its no big deal, but i actually dun like to drink tea. but cos im bored, dats y i wanted to drink something i usually dun drink...lolx...im insane...after i pour boiling hot water into my cup with the tea bag....i wanted to find sugar, then i opened the fridge, searched high and low, but cant find any sugar. Then i went opened the cabinet, searched high low too, but still.....no sugar.....i onli found an empty container, that used to store sugar. ohmigosh...are we dat poor, that we even lack of sugar in my hse???? oh my...i still cant believe i dun hav sugar in my hse...makes me feel like there's a war going on in my country, and we're refuges....lolx. U ppl muz be wondering wat i did to the tea rite? i took a few sips of dat bitter tea...eww....n i threw e rest away...lolx...im nt going to drink tea le...ewww...

I tell u smting lei...yesterday rite? during at night...at about 1am plus....my whole family was asleep, and the hse was dark...my sis n i were lying on e bed...both trying to slp....but we cant....cos...we're terribly disturbed by smting...smting terrible was happening to us, that usually dun happen at all!!!! u wanna noe wat happen anot....smting unusal realli happened!!! but i wont tell u 2day....tell u tml....lolx...keep u in suspense...lolx....tata

2003-11-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

Chessie ppl....im back..hee....now is already way past mid-night....but since i promised u ppl to blog when i come back, here i m....im so sure u ppl miss me rite? lolx....cos im....okieeee....i noe u ppl muz noe wad im going to say rite??? lolx...but im still gonna say it....cos im cute!!!!!!!!!!! lolx....no one can stop me frm saying dat oh....cos datz me....CI...noe wats dat? it stands for....Cute & Innocent...lolx...datz moi....hee

kkla....2day rite? my date was nice lei....took alot of pics...hee...all cute lei....all gt me one sure cute wan....lolx....aiyoo...i tink my disease is getting frm bad to worse rite? sighz...but cant b help la....lolx....anyone gt any recommendation 4 medicine 4 cute moi?

aiyoo...im now v slpy...need my cute slp....going lala land le....nite ppl....muacks

2003-11-15T11:22:00.000+08:00

Cheesie...ppl out there....how r ya doin??? moi is feeling great. u noe, my currently having my holidays now rite? and u noe how im enjoying it right now? its v simple, by staying at my home swt home. U ppl muz b thinking, its darn boring to stay at home rite??? well.....but I've been watching vcds!!! dats y....my favourite korean vcds....oh my....its v funny too....title is 'since i met you'. its so funny....n when i watch the couple part....my whole body tickles....lolx...dunno y....like 'xin yang yang'...lolx...i bet u dunno wat i mean ya? nvm....cheesie....

Oh ya...i cant blog much now.....i've got a date!!!! n i've gotta go dress up nice nice wor....then i can look e cutest to the maximum...lolx...hee...

kk....if can i'll blog somemore when i come back ya? tata ppl....muacks..

2003-11-11T12:30:00.000+08:00

Heyoz ppl!!!! ~cheezie~ i noe alot of ppl hav been waiting with bated breathe for me to blog...so, me being such a kind person, i coudn't let u ppl suffocate...lolx...so i'll start blogging away...but im sure u ppl realli miss me alot ritey rite?? lolx...of course la...cos im...(oh no...my desease is recurring again....oh no).....cute, and adorable? lolx....okay...i'll give u ppl permission to go puke now....in 5secs, u muz b back....5, 4, 3, 2, 1....ding ding ding....sorry...i got up at e wrong side of my bed 2day ~cheesie~

Hmmm....wat u ppl wan me to blog??? shall i tok abt my camp? hmm...not a bad idea arh...but its abit like stale news...but i really had fun in e camp...enjoyed going to e minds to...e MCs did a great job....cheers. Though there was this spoilsport...but it was kindda fun seeing him cry....lolx...cruel me, who ask him spoil our fun...lolx...go ahead n cry 4 ur mama, boy...lolx...oh no...im v bad man...hee...naughty me

Oh ya Mann, rem 15 Nov...'our aged pals' n '4eva young us' hav a date!!!! lolx..n thx 4 defending me....continue fighting e verbal war with potisabi manz....u go gal....lolx...n potisabi --> tok to my hand man....lolx..lalala

These few days spent alot of money le arh....plus my mom bought a 11k plus piano lei....shucks....dats a bomb man...i really gotta save money le....muz spent money onli on those necessary stuff....

N I WANNA COMPLAIN!!!! lolx....how come sometimes e pics in my blog can b seen n sometime it cant??? wat is wrong???? Haiyo....

SigHz...i now gotta start tinking of wat to cook for dinner....hmmm....

I go le la....later then i blog again....cya ppl....MUACKS!!!

2003-11-03T19:05:00.000+08:00

Cheesiezz ppl!!! lolx....hello...im here again wor...lolx...miss me alot rite? lolx....but did i miss u ppl??? hmmm....lolx...

Noe y i suddenly blog anot??? lolx...cos i got alot of pics to post here!!!! lolx....some v hilarious...some v swt...some v cute...juz like me...lolx....kk, i'll stop bhbing le...wanna see e pics anot??? get ready arh....here goes

This pic cute rite??? On e left is moi...n e right is my dear pal, huimin!!!

This is 'violent' huimin n......her jeremy...lolx....(oh no...she's gonna kill mi!!!)

Hee...e guy on e left is my kor, n on e right is eric, e ones who always bully me...sob!!!

Wow...2 cute n adorable gals beside eric wor....he muz hav felt sooo honoured man....lolx.

This pic super cute rite??? on e left is wang qian..me...n tina jie...hee...so cute rite??? lolx

2003-11-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

CheesieZZ ppl!!!! lolx....u ppl muz b wondering wad e heck is cheesie rite? lolx...its a new word i created....cos ppl say cheese when taking photos ma...to smile....so i say cheesie....like smiling loh...lolx....im mad la...but e word v cute rite?? lolx....dun copy it arh...lolx

Mann, i actually wanna blog everyday wan...but smtimes i really lazy...then smtimes got nthing to write lei. u oso lazy bum la....nv update ur webbie...lolx....still say me...lolx but these few days i got alot alot of tings to blog...cos alot of tings happened....happy n sad tings....but so many tings to write till i dunno where to start. and sm tings cannot write here...sighz...

erm...n hor, i got alot of interesting pics to post wan...but i lost my angelfire login user name dah...how??? aiya....fishymin...u rem anot huh?? my brain like not working liao le...lolx

oh ya...i went to raffles with kor, eric, crapy min...to collect my mama's flowers....hee....we went to eat Subway....crappymin's idea...1st time eat there wor...but e sandwich there not bad lei...though very big and fat...but its nice...u ppl muz try...lolx...but eric dun like...cos its not filling...ohmigosh....i cant even finish mine...lolx...

the flower colour combination was really like shit...serious....pink rose, with red, purple, white, green, yellow wild flowers...can u imagine??? n the wild flowers they used looked like 'tumour growth'!!!!! ohmigosh....im serious....alot alot of round round weird looking tings....n hairy too....yucks....plus, they tied till very tight...frm $50, look like $10. and it really looks like i bought it frm wet market..eww...lucky, huimin n kor there....they helped me argue with the sales ppl...then they agreed to change for me...the colours...i changed to white rose....with purple 4get-me-nots, n green leaves...much simpler n nicer...but gotta collect it later...

then in sch...they called me, say no white rose....then i changed to white tulips...heee....n it was very nice too...wrapping was much nicer too...hee....all thx to my great fren huimin, n kor....

aiyo...i still got alot of tings to blog wan....but very e late le....n i need my cute slp to get cuter each day...lolx...so nitez guys....muacks....

2003-10-31T09:40:00.000+08:00

YOyoZ!!!! Im v sure every1 misses me alot rite? nv blog so long.....sorry guys...so here i am, as i hav promised my dear old buddie Mann....i'll blog arh...

Today is actually my precious mommie bdae lei....then yesterday rite, i suddenly got an idea to but flowers 5 her...cos she likes them...so i asked my stingy sistar to call my kor's phone...cos starhub ma...so free incoming call....then rite, we keep arguing abt e price lei...we saw frm e web, its $45, a bouquet....then i say i pay $20...and she pay $25, cos she working...n i still studying ma...so i muz hav 'student rate'...lolx....she say no lei...see la...so stingy...then i say i pay $22...she pay 50cents for me....but she dun wan lei....50cents oso so stinge....lolx....wat a miser. but e conversation was v funny...keep bargaining...like in market...my classmates oso laughing...they say 50cents oso wanna argue...by e time finish arguing..e time we tok will b more than 50cents...lolx...

Then after sch rite, my kor accompany me go order e flowers...is at Raffles place....then we took mrt...then alighted at City hall, then we suddenly blur...thot its at Raffles...so we took back to Raffles...then walk..but like wrong place dah...so called Fishymin...then she say is at City hall...biangz...then dat kor rite, toopid man...say walk to City hall mrt....cos v near...plus, it was drizzling quite heavily..then we walk, n walk, n walk, n walk, n walk...feels like eternerty man...n my legs were like gonna break...cos e day b4 dat, i had tennis..then so tired...ppl is 'shop till u drop', but me is 'walk till I DROP!!!'. Sigh...idiot...but we walk past boat quay, n clark quay...it was my 1st time there lei...lolx....im like a foreigner loh...not singaporean..lolx...then we FINALLY reached...n I decided to buy e baby pink rose...half a dozen...cost me 50 bucks lei...so ex...BUT, i willing to pay, 4 my mommie..hee...

Tell u smting...im now in sch...lolx....n e attendance really pathetic loh...out of 25 students...onli 8 came arh....pathetic anot??? but we 2day in class can relax lei...cos last night, my team members n i discuss in msn...then do do do...till quite later wor...past 11....n i was damn slpy u noe...wanna tell them go slp...but dare not wor...cos onli 'some' of them r bz finding lo, but not onli i feel slpy loh...lolx...n if slp, abit unfair...so i ren n ren...lolx...quickly find my share of work...then 'ding dong' send my slide to them, at e end, i e 1st wan to go...lolx...really pig rite?

kla...blog alot liao la....my dearest mann...alot liao ma?? lolx....kk...later going out of sch 2 eat...then collect my flower..hee...adios 4 nowie...lolx....muack every1....oh ya...i got alot of new pics...i'll try to post here k...hee...tata

2003-10-24T15:11:00.000+08:00

Aloohh again....my dad gave me this thing to read, and i tink its really true and useful, so i'll like to write down to share with u guys.

God gave you power to love and think, to create and imagine, and to plan.
But the greatest power you have is the power to choose.
You're going to choose whether you believe or doubt.
You are going to choose whether or not you are going to be happy or sad, suceed or fail.
You're going to choose your attitude.
Those are choices!!!
http://www.avemariapress.com

Isn't it very true?

2003-10-24T14:01:00.000+08:00

Hihihihihihihihihi...im sure u miss me alot rite? i so long nv blog....alot of tings happen loh....bad n good....wanted to blog many times, but im always bz, cos alot of test are coming up. and sometimes, im too upset to write down wat happened...im really sorry ppl...

i rem, on tue, i had a club meeting which ended late. When i board the bus to go home, it was pretty empty, but as it neared orchard, the bus became more n more packed. And i was sitting on e 'green sit' near e window. then a the bus bcame so packed dat we're like sardines in a can. then a old man board the bus, but no one gave up e sit 4 him. i wanted to...but e woman beside me, who was slping, was like occupying alot of space, even her legs blocked e space to walk..plus the big n bulky stuff she was carrying...sigh....then more n more elderly board the bus. and i was getting more n more upset...i cant offer them my sit, n no one bother to let them sit too. finally the bulky woman beside me alighted, n i too gave up my sit to let them sit. but i still feel upset.

then yesterday, in sch, i had alot of fun, keep laughing in my grp, like no one's business....then i went bonkers...lolx...really like my team members yesterday...we're e best!!!! but i now got cough...dunno which toopid person pass e toopid germs...lolx...but when i reached home, sigh....i felt very dejected. my mom, whom i really close to, and love alot, said someting dat really hurt me alot...i was really really down, tried to control my tears, but i couldn't. cos probably i get hurt very easily, and always try to act like im strong...but deep down, im far frm dat...then my dad encourage me, he wrote a letter to me, say i muz b strong, n muz know how to deal with it, cos nxt time, i'll surely meet more ppl who'll criticize me, n i muz learn how to deal with it. and he told me to 4give n 4get...really thank you, dad. I love you!!!

im feeling much better now, i still love my mom like i used too....nthing has changes....i'll try hard not to cry anymore...and really a big thank you to my frens who lend e their listening ear...really grateful to u....i really owe u big time...if u need some1 to tok to, u can find me, k....i willing 100% to listen....i can b silent...n listen 2 u tok e whole day.

i blog alot le, so i better stop now...i'll blog soon ppl...thx a million 2 every1... muacks!!!

2003-10-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

Yoz...haven blog 4 a longie time liaoz rite? hee...cos its either im busy, or i 4got, or i've got nthing to write abt...lolx...cos if i got nthing to write about, i'll start BHBing, and ACBCing loh..hee...n u ppl always say me loh...lolx...so i dun blog la...lolx...but im very sure dat u guyz really miss reading it rite? lolx....there i go again...

oh ya, yesterday was my classmate, michelle's bdae party wor...hee....actually wanna meet xin wen n jonathan earlier to play tennis wan, but cos i dun wanna bring extra clothes, plus i dun wanna sweat loh....so i didn't go...hee....at the end they oso nv play...lolx...so i met dat 'feng po zi' --> Huimin, at 1pm....but she was late!!!! bully me again...we went Pastamania to eat...so full man....then we went to buy her bag....she so small size still wans a big bag!!! she bought a Fila bag for onli $19.90 lei....gd rite? n she arh...really crazy....nthing can save her liaoz....she's totally gone bonkers!!!! lolx...

then we went to michelle hse....met Hiya in e mrt...in michelle hse rite, they sing karaoke for many hours man...non-stop...i really pity her neighbours manz...lolx.....n dat 'feng po zi' took a photo, acting like a 'zhen zi'...with e fan blowing at her hair....yucks...n she really resembles one....lolx....

wanted to go home at 7...then delay till 9...wah....i reached home at 10+ lei....so tired...but still cant slp, cos gotta watch a korean drama...last episode lei...

kla, i tired liao...i noe 2day's blog not so interesting, sorry lei, will do better next time. Ciao!!!

2003-10-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

Hi ppl out there who's reading my interesting bloggie...lolx....2day i hav alot of tings to blog abt arh....some good and some bad...so i'll star with e good 1st k, cos if i start with e bad, later i no mood write abt e good...hee...

2day, had maths lesson...eww...so horigible...all my grp members all blur...except 1, who's frm china loh....but he still abit blur...but not as blur as us....then after the 2nd meeting, almost my whole class rushed to eat lunch to attend a tok by a young millioniare, Adam Khoo. Alot of ppl say he very handsome, but really meh? i dun really tink so lei. i tink he's average la, except got abit of boyish look onli la....but his tok was really enjoyable, the way he joke, make my sides tickle man, i laughed till tears came out...but i really learnt alot frm his tok....

okay, wanna hear e bad ting? sigh...bare with mi ya? here goes....i m damn pissed of with 1 of my classmate loh....especially his freaking attitude...cos 2day maths prob, no 1 in our grp noe how to do, except 1, then we hav onli 1hr more, till presentation time, and still onli abt 3 slides r done...which 2 slides consists of title onli....and dat classmate of mine had other class's presentation slides, so i asked him to copy a few slides frm them, i could see he was already not happy loh...but if i noe how to do, i already would hav done it, and wouldn't ask him loh...but i really had no choice...then when he was doing, i asked him polietly if i can b of any help. then he say its i 'force' him 2 do wan lo...then ans till like wanna fight like dat....then later still dare to scold me using e F word...i sae back la, 'ur attitude sux'. he has been using all those rough language...like tmd, F word...bla bla...his attitude is getting frm bad to worse loh...alot of ppl already cant tahan it liao...then i told him b4...he say he got alot of problems, personal, sch...bla bla....but pls loh....who doesn't??? some ppl hav worser probs than him, its juz dat we dun noe, cos they dun show it like him...they choose not to let those probs affect them onli...but him??? he use tis kind of language to vend his fustration on ppl!!!! wat e heck??? pls la, every1 has probs k....its just e matter of how we deal with them....if we nv accept the problems we hav, we'll nv be able to solve it....we need to come in terms with e prob we face...

sigh...wateva la...i really cant b bothered anymore....fed-up....i dun wan to cry bcos of tis...im tired....nite...

2003-10-14T13:29:00.000+08:00

HoLAlaLA!!!! So sorry...yesterday nv blog....cos i had tennis, then when reached home, was super tired...plus need to study for e toopid problem solving understanding test....sianz....oh yea, yesterday in sch...played gunbound with crappy huimin...lolx...oops...., 4eva stressed jonathan, xin wen, joker Hiya, and bias Mr Devil....lolx...huimin n jonathan n me same team...then we won lei!!! lolx....tis is called gal power...lolx...though jonathan not gal, but when he wears a ski-cap, he looks like a buddhist nun...lolx....so funny.....GUYS...time to move over n make way 4 us GALZ!!!

SighZ!!!! i hav alot of tings to blog....but i cant seem to rem wat they are....sigh....so if i've got nthing to blog, i'll start BHBing...lolx...so u guys cant blame me u noe...im sooo innocent...n rem, innocent is spelt I N N O C E N T...not innconnect...lolx....okokie...i noe, i very bad...but datz me...playful...n ren xing...lolx....oh ya, n naive to...lolx....n last but not least, cute n adorable too....gee...lolx

kla, i still in sch...if i go hm free...then i'll continue to blog okie? dun miss me like i noe u always do....give u kiss....if not i scared u later get xiang si bing...lolx.....MUUUUUUACK!!!!!! im so cute....lolx

Oh b4 i go...im sooo happy now....my dad say we can hav a dog!!!!!!!!!!!! finally...but we muz hav e money n muz find time to take care....of course...i dun mind not going for holidays liao....n i dun mind remaining single all my life....i rather hav a dog...lolx....yesh...im serious....i wan a MALTESE....if guy...shall i name it Matty? n gal, shall i name it Lala? lolx

2003-10-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

SaluTaTioNs my fren!!! so sorry....didn't blog yesterday...cos i played gunbound loh...then i 4got....hee....sooo sorry...i noe alot of ppl hav been anticipating to read my blog....esp my potisabi sis...she has been waiting impatiently...lolx...my blog very interesting rite? lolx....there i go BHBing again...lolx....

I dunno y lei...when i play gunbound, 1 vs 1 rite, i always get double shots lei...lolx...then my frens all complain....not fair...lolx...they say probably its bcos im lower rank...but no lei...cos now i no longer a chick...n when i play with a chick...i still get double shots...lolx....gb like me la...i tink gb find me cute...dats y...lolx....i cute still got alot of ppl ai k....lolx

2day, i went to church, i found e sermon really meaningful. God says: When two or three gather in my name, i'll be in e mist of them....smthing like dat...dat is true...but dun 4get that God is in-charge of everything...He has His own plans...n His own timing. So, dats y smtimes our prayers dun come true....but God still hears them...and He has another plan that is better for u...

My dad juz asked me and my sis tis qn, 'is life fair?' wat do u tink the real truth is? the truth is, life is unfair...BUT...it actually depends on how u tink...if u take tings positively, then it wont be so unfair afterall...i noe...its easier said than done...but try...

smtimes, i dunno y...i offend ppl without knowing it...probably im too crude with my words...or too straightforward....n here, i sincerely apologise to anybody out there whom i've offened in any way...im really sorry...no hard feelings ya? sigh...me n my mouth...damn it...y is it dat everything i do, its always not right? i feel sad now...no mood 2 blog le...really sorry....................

2003-10-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

GreeTinGs!!!! 2day hor...i can play Gunbound liao wor...hee....at 1st cant play wan...cos behind firewall...lolx...so now can liaoz...went to IT helpdesk to ask them help me do....e IT helpdesk guy oso got play one...lolx....so funny...plus dat huimin cant pronounce one of the guy's name...so funny...lolx...im mad...

Gunbound not bad la...played with alot of ppl wor....then 1 guy frm germany n america said i played well for a beginner lei...hee....over e moon manz...lolx....plus they very funny...play with them, i keep laughing...lolx...

oh ya...juz curious...got smthing to ask u guys....do i tok like im 18? no rite? e way i tok like a kiddo rite? lolx....watta do? cos deep down inside me, im still a cute n innocent little gal...lolx....im BHBing again...lolx...but true ma...lolx

2day my team members quite funny...Jonathan make me wanna laugh man...lolx...especially when he n Hiya present...i laughed till i cried...lolx...argue with dat Devil abt who shld b e leader or scribe...he so childish man...lolx....but at e end, i win...lolx....cos he became e scribe...n i as e leader...can boss around...lolx...i keep complaining e ppt background not nice...requested for change...lolx...many times...till he fed-up...lolx....funny rite? dat is e result 4 bullying me...lolx...BEWARE ANYBODY....dun mess with me...lolx

Kla, i go lala land liao...tired siah...i need my cute slp...so i can b cuter...lolx....nitez....muack muack every1...luv u all!!!

2003-10-09T21:32:00.000+08:00

AloHA every1!!! 2day the blood donation drive came to sch...and quite a number of ppl went to donate blood u noe...i really envy them....they can go donate, but i cant....y muz it b tis way??? though im skinny, but i wont faint wan la...but i heard dat 1 gal fainted...but dats cos she didn't rest after donating blood....sigh...so naughty...lolx

The song 'You Laid Aside Your Majesty' is soo beautiful....e lyrics are so meaningful that i feel like crying...i keep hearing it...over n over again...it reminds me of wat God has done, and sacrificed for us...I LOVE U, GOD!!! U"LL HAV MY HEART N SOUL ALWIZ!!! thx huimin...4 sending me tis song...btw, u arh....make me unable to slp well last night...so scary u noe...keep thinking abt it....then in e middle of the night, i'll wake up, and make sure everything is alright...n i dare not move too much...u la...lolx...ask me to read dat person's blog...ewww....

Btw, Mr Eric aka Devil, im not xiao mei mei hor, im Miss cute angelic angel....lolx....Potisabi, n stop peeping early in e morning la....i really wonder wat u r dreaming abt after u go back 2 slp....lolx...not abt me i hope...lolx...n where's my medicine? im mad bcos u arn't giving me my daily dose of medicine...lolx

i 2day very tired...all dat crazy huimin's fault la...lolx....so im going my lala land soon....so nite every1...muack muack!!!!

2003-10-08T21:40:00.000+08:00

WaSSuP BabY!!! sorry arh...didn't blog last night...cos my 'Da dA' got some prob..probably she's sick...'Da dA' dun even allow me to play games, always giving me error page...lolx...

Whaha...2day maths i noe how to do lei...not 100% la...but can say 70% la...not bad liao wor...nv depend on 'china ppl'...lolx....i very clever rite? lolx...i oso noe...cos i got hight IQ n EQ n AQ...lolx...sorry, im abit mad again 2day...i've run out of my 'madness' medication...lalaheeheelalaheehee....

oh yes....n b4 i 4got, JiaReMi, can u pls stop flooding my tag box? n if u really wanna tag smthing, can tag smthing dat make sense??? i really haven't got a slightest clue wat u r writing abt. AND, 'aH~BenG', stop bullying and tricking me....dun call me ah boy or xiao mei mei...if cute mei mei, i'll still accept....but not xiao mei mei k....lolx...n my dear 'PoTiSaBi' sis, pls dun b so p_r_e_t_c...stop peeping...its not healthy 4 ur eyes, n mind...lolx.....i told ya...im crazy 2day...lolx...

oh ya...kor...sorry...2day u say 1 thing...i argue back with smthing ...lolx...cos i muz learn to defend myself...cos im always an innocent victim...kana bully by ppl...lolx...sorry...hee...n u haven tell me when u free yet dah!?!?

Im soo bored u noe...all my 'Da dA' fault la...cant play games properly.....sigh...hey ppl...tok 2 me!!!! im so bored!!! kla, i better stop my madness...some ppl are apparently getting my madness disease liao...lolx....i better go now...blog tml...cya then...muack n nite!!!! rem 2 miss me!!!!

2003-10-07T13:52:00.000+08:00

SaLuT!!!! so sorry...yesterday i nv blog...cos yesterday i was really tired, frm tennis, n physical training. So sorry....i noe alot of ppl like to read my interesting and cute blog...lolx...especially my potisabi sister...she has been anxiously(eager) antisipating to read it....she muz hav find my blogs very interesting n cute...lolx...uh oh...im BHBing again...lolx....but watta do, dat's wat makes me unique....lolx...

Oh yeah....tell u abt my tennis better...wah lao...i going to cut my nails...yesterday...dunno wat happened...one side of my thumb nail tore away frm e flesh....ouch...so painful u noe....then got blood...owwww!!!!!!!! Yesterday's tennis physical training was tough....but i dun mind the training being tough, bcos i really enjoy playing tennis. Then i took MRT with Tina-jie...so now i no need go back myself liao...hee...not so scared liao...but i still hav to take a bus frm e interchange. and there, always got mad man one...im serious...not kidding...then always call mi 'xiao mei mei'...so i name dat mad man, 'xiao di di'....he really look scary loh...but yesterday nv meet dat mad man...instead met one 'shuai ge' in uniform wo...lolx...eye-contact...lolx...but i was really too tired...so i heck care....then suddenly, a malay guy came infont of me, then wait 4 me to look up then told me, pointing behind me"he call u" wat e heck....i nv turn...but e ppl around me, all turn around to look at me...i so pai seh man....he's a scumbag...lolx

then, i almost slpt in e bus...too tired...then my dinner was 1 fillet-O-fish....but i was still very hungry...sigh....

kla, my lesson going to start liao...will blog 2nite....dun miss me ohh....lolx...cya late

2003-10-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

eLLoo again!!! rem juz now i said i measure my weight was 43kg? yepz...then after i came back frm my jog, i went to measure again...n i lost 1kg!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE HECK????
usually galz gain weight easily n will try very hard to lose weight, but im e opposite!!! here i am, trying to gain as much weight as i can, but at the end.....ArgHHHHH!!!!!! fed-up!!!!

juz now, i saw frm my parent's room window, abt 2 blocks away, they were tearing down this very old tree. they used a crane...then slowly tore down the foliage, then dug out the roots, then tore the whole tree down. i could even hear the tearing sound. it was horrible. i dun noe y, but when i stood there watching, i felt dat my heart was tearing too...i was really painful. its as if i could hear the cries n pleads of that old tree....how could they bear to do such a thing? trees hav feelings too u noe...they're afterall a living thing...then a thot came into my mind...the elderly in our society, are they treated this way too? juz bcos they're old, they chuck u aside...to make way for the new?? ppl nowadays are really taking things 4 granted, n im really upset by tis...i cant help myself frm feeling tis way...

2003-10-05T16:13:00.000+08:00

eLLo! sigh...im quite sad and disappointed now loh...sigh...wanna noe y rite? sigh...cos i searched high n low 4 e weighing machine in e hse, finally i found it....then....i step on it....n e meter says dat im onli 43kg!!!!! wat e heck man....plus, i weigh myself after eating lei...i felt so bloated after eating so much...then 43kg....wat e heck??? wah lao...how la....i really feel like donating blood....dat was like my 'dreamz'...lolx....weird ppl hav weird 'dreamz'....then now...my 'dreamz' is shattered...u muz b wondering why i wanna donate blood rite? hav u eva thot b4 dat other unfortunate ppl need blood urgently, and e onli way i can help them indirectly is by donating my blood. compared to them, i really feel fortunate...n i really thank God, for everything...even the little number of hairs on my head..lolx...

oh yeahz...i 4got to add dat, last friday, we had a lesson on probability bla bla....and i needed a sentence on probability, so i asked my sis to help me tink of 1....n u noe wat sentence she came out with??? i'll tell u, but u hav 2 promise not 2 laugh....here goes: 'If Lili goes to donate blood, the probability of her fainting after that is 99%!' crap rite?????? she even gave me another one...' The probabilty of Lili being flown away with her umbrella by the wind is 88%!' ArgH!!!!! lolx....dun laugh hor...to tink dat crazy huimin wanted to use those as an example for her slides!!!! NO WAY!!!! lolx...

sigh...later gotta go jogging liao...sigh...tml got tennis...dunno whether im suppose to feel happy or sad....sigh...lolx..2day, im really mad...dunno wats wrong with me 2day...i tink a nerve in my brain broke...lolx...can any1 subscribe medicine 4 me???

hey...i nv AC n BHB in 2days blog rite??? wow...miracle siah...lolx....or did i???

2003-10-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

Yoyoz!!! the time now is 10.27pm...hee...juz now, e moment i came back frm sch, i went to my ^LalA laND^...lolx...stayed there for 4 hrs, b4 coming back 2 tis earth...lolx...nice siah...nxt time u wanna visit my ^LalA laND^, tell moi...i'll give u a ticket to enter...lolx...but cannot put any !DeviLs! inside hor...dun follow dat 'extremely scatter-brains' *kor* n *aH~BenG*...they always bully me....wah lao..i tink i noe y they always bully me liaoz....CoS im too cute...n irristable...so they JeaLous...dats Y....lolx...i really BHB rite? lolx....die la...tis disease of mine seems to b getting worse...lolx...

I cant stand dat *aH~BenG*!!!! keep bullying me!!!! dat moron say im actually a boy, disguised as a gal...??!!??? what e heck???? let me put it straight, im 100% pure breed born gal k!!! im not aH BoY!!! though i look like a boy when i was young...but im a gal!!! lolx....how could u say i my character n e way i act is like a boy??? *OucH* ~SoB sOb~!!!! so sad....lolx....

Now, im watching Korean drama...wow...dat Park Yong Ha so dashing man!!!! he sooo handsome....lolx...make my heart melt....oh my...lolx...im mad....i need my medicine!!!!

i gtg....nite every1...muack muack!!!!

2003-10-04T12:32:00.000+08:00

HeY HeY!!! tell u, im now quite fed-up with my TooPID school...RP. (R)eally (P)roblematic manz!!!!!!! 2day, i reached sch at 8:50am, to attend a tok...which starts @ 9.30am. but im meeting dat ~CrazY GaL~huimin at 9am, cos she gonna teach me the codes for this blog loh....then she late arh...lolx...late freakz....lolx....but she reached b4 9.30, then stayed in class till 9.30...then go 4 e tok....

Then juz when we were reaching e rm, a grp of ppl say muz go register 1st...even though we had already pre-registered. And by the time we went there, the facilitators said they cannot let us in, for its already full house and we late.....oh puleaz....we're like onli 5 or 10 minutes late loh....plus i dun tink e speaker has started the tok loh...probably onli introducing himself....wah lao....i wasted 2 CEM pts juz like dat lei....im an innocent victim!!!!!!!!!! can't RP hold toks in a bigger place? wah lao....they really very (R)EALLY (P)ROBLEMATIC, im (R)EALLY (P)ISSED loh!!!!! but ok, i admit, its part of my fault too...but still...sigh....4get it...

sigh....i now really no mood to blog...no mood to eat...but i hav to eat!!! my goal now is to gain weight to at least 45kg by Monday....so i can go donate blood....lolx....im insane....my sis say im nv normal...lolx....well, i used to b more mad loh...i now not so liao lei....except probably more BHB & ACBC....lolx...e 'ToopiD' baboon aka *ah~beng* will surely agree with me wan...lolx...

kla, i gtg soon liao....later then blog again....ADIOS!!!!!!!!!!!

2003-10-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

HoLa everyone!!!! Hmm....im feeling sooo GooD now, *yippee*. wanna noe why? of course la, cos i noe u very kpo wan...lolx....well, 1stly is because tml is wkend liao....hee....2nd is because my mom juz brought me out to dinner...gee....wanted to go Swensen's wan, but full house, plus a long queue, so we went to Thai Express to eat instead. 1st time eat there....e food is not bad la...but quite ex loh...

Wah lao...my 'kor' juz scold me....*sOb SoB*....he say i very lazy.... n not onli he tink dat way, he say other ppl oso tink i lazy....really meh? sob sob...i so sad.....lolx....but it's quite true la....but not totally lazy hor...its actually depends on how u define lazy la....lolx.....e way i do things really lazy ma? kor, u hurt me...*ouch*.....sob sob....lolx....sorri la...i abit unsound now...but im really lazy arh...then muz tell mi mah....haiyoz....muz tell mi, then i'll noe my mistake, n try not to do e same mistake again ma.....i other than lazy still got wat huh? muz tell mi e truth hor....

sigh...now i no mood to crap liao...all kor's fault la....lolx....jk....its actually bcos im very tired, and mis my ^LalA laND^ alot..so i tink i go orh orh liao la....nitez every1....muacks!!!! swt dreamz....

2003-10-03T09:31:00.000+08:00

HeLoo...!!!! My dear ~crazy~ friend, Huimin, created this webby for moi...so in order not to waste her 'precious' effort...lolx....i will blog as much as i can...hee...dat huimin arh...though im older than her, but she's always e wan bullying me...haiyo....in chinese, tis is called 'mei da mei xiao'....lolx....dun get it wrong, its not dat im easily bullied oh.., its dat i give her face arh...see her small....lolx...gee....oops...she's gonna strangle me after she reads this...lolx...but she's really a great friend, given to me by God, and im really glad to have her as my friend *smiles*....

Oooh ya, tis is my 1st time doin a webby...so it's very very the plain....i noe....but pls b patient k, im still learning frm dat ~crazy gal~ how to add more things....hee...i gonna put alot alot of pics....if u hav any suggestions for me, tell mi!!!!

Hmm....im very confused n blur now....i feel like donating blood u noe....dun laugh hor....but really loh....but im troubled because of the requirements lei. need at least 45kg, n i not sure if i 45kg anot lei....very long nv weight...cant find e weighing machine in my hse, dunno disappear where liao...lolx.....plus, even if im 45kg, but im not sure if my blood count is enough lei....sigh....shld i, or shldn't i???

Yippeee!!! e wkends are coming....can slp as long as i wan...lolx....I now so slpy u noe....lolx......ppl always say i pig...especially my 'toopid' kor..lolx...n dat 'toopid' *ah~benG*...always call mi pig...i wont deny dat im like a pig la....but i've got something to add loh....im not juz a pig, im a extremely cute n adorable piggie!!! lolx....dat 'toopid' *ah~BenG* always say i BHB n ACBC....lolx....but where got la...i really very cute ma...lolx....okok, i better stoping praising myself now....if not later their blood pressure will go up, then kana stroke....lolx....

K le la....i blog enough le la....now need to start doing work liao....if not later no one will do wan....lolx....okok....i'll continue blogging later...but 4 now....ADIOS!!!!

2003-10-02T15:12:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo.. my new blog!!